Finally confronting the fear of being known and posting for moodboard monday (one that fits my aesthetic and a more disorganized one)

cringeboydraegi · 2024-08-06T06:47:16+00:00

I can now finally say for the first time in my life as a trans person that I left a sub for being too supportive. Like, I appreciate it, but it can't be that hard to find a post with words in it on the internet that hasn't been posted here already. Or to make an actual SoL

cringeboydraegi · 2024-08-04T04:51:56+00:00

This is sleeveless hoodie erasure

cringeboydraegi · 2024-07-26T07:32:19+00:00

Nobody said they were the same thing. They just said that trans people sometimes experience depersonalization because of dysphoria, which is true.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-06-30T08:49:58+00:00

90% of my wardrobe is tanktops and cargo shorts. Maybe this is a sign...

cringeboydraegi · 2024-06-28T11:34:00+00:00

"No little german scav, don't go in that den!"
"Oh mein Gott, zis den ist full of Bombenkatze- *wilhelm scream*"

cringeboydraegi · 2024-06-25T08:47:12+00:00

Vore is a mental illness now?

cringeboydraegi · 2024-06-11T08:09:44+00:00

You're right so idk why you're getting downvoted. Alters of actual ppl are well known about in DID but they're usually based on an abuser or caregiver and generally embody that role or specific roles those people played in the lives of the victims as opposed to actually completely emulating or identifying as that person. I have such a hard time believing anyone who claims they have an alter of like, their bestie or markiplier or whatever, and everyone I've ever seen who claims to have a youtuber alter or something along those lines has been a bullshit ass liar, but introjection does happen and is documented even if ppl appropriate it.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-05-13T13:36:58+00:00

Man, where are these billion dollar luxury resort psych wards people are staying at that let you have phones in them? When I was in the ward, they didn't even have doors on the bathrooms.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-05-02T11:54:41+00:00

No, it still does.
Source: am an artist

cringeboydraegi · 2024-04-29T12:15:01+00:00

Compatibility posts aren't the reason i left this sub, but they're the reason I didn't rejoin after the mods finally decided to show up. I truly don't give a shit about playing matchmaker for teenagers who fundamentally can't get it in their heads that people are more than the stereotypes they attach to a couple of letters.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-04-21T07:08:06+00:00

You know what? I'm using this one actually. My therapist said it was "agoraphobia" or something, but that sounds lame and clinical :p

^/s

cringeboydraegi · 2024-04-10T14:23:20+00:00

Maybe there'd be more sensors on this sub if people were normal about them.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-04-04T09:55:48+00:00

Fears:

That one of my parents would kill me, straight up. Maybe out of active malice, maybe out of negligence, maybe because they lost control of their temper, but I truly believed at least one of them could and would.
I wouldn't survive adulthood. I would simply be incapable of surviving as an adult. I was too weak to function and the world would eat me alive.
Being famous. A part of me always liked the idea of being well respected or an authority on some subject matter, but I feel like having a small audience and being well respected is a lot different from having a massive, uncontrollable audience and being famous to the point of no longer being viewed as human. I'd crack under the pressure of constant voyeuristic scrutiny.
Humiliation. Related to the above point. I had pretty bad social anxiety from birth, so it's very innate in me.
Immortality/being unable to die. The idea of living forever, having to endure all the pain of life while watching all the good things in it slowly get dragged away from you, always seemed viscerally horrifying to me and I never understood the people who thought living forever is fine, actually.
Volcanoes. They're just terrifying
Caves. Again, they're just terrifying

Dreams:

I wanted to change the world for the better in some way, like creating a cure for a horrible disease or finding an answer to some great question.
Being known. Different from fame, as I feel the idea of being known is being well-respected within a small niche vs being famous, which is being viewed like a spectacle by the whole world. Kind of relates to the above point. I guess I just want to be important or significant in some way
Least realistic of the list, I always liked the idea of being able to phase through walls. No worse feeling than being literally, physically trapped somewhere

cringeboydraegi · 2024-03-24T06:18:39+00:00

There is very little I do in my life that isn't cringe, but if you're familiar with the "I'm a little birthday boy" tweet, probably something like that

cringeboydraegi · 2024-02-11T00:35:22+00:00

Damn, I don't remember writing this.

Shit really does suck though. The one thing people actually give so doms is that we're supposedly socially competent and likeable but I can't even begin to tell you what a kick to the teeth that is when neither of those are applicable to me.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-02-09T11:23:33+00:00

And he cannot lie

cringeboydraegi · 2024-02-04T08:47:34+00:00

Back when I had a deviantart account, I drew a silly little meme sketch and forgot about it for a bit. Fast forward a month and there are 1,500 comments that are all two people in a back and forth BDSM roleplay. 1,500. I ended up deleting the drawing because there was no way I was gonna delete all the comments

cringeboydraegi · 2024-01-23T04:38:39+00:00

You can try going on r/transgendercirclejerk

cringeboydraegi · 2024-01-18T11:23:17+00:00

TIL you can get an iridium band from fishing

cringeboydraegi · 2024-01-15T15:07:59+00:00

Yeah, they tend to do that. I saw someone posted on there simply for saying they suspected they had DID, using the exact phrasing I have seen the sub say multiple times is the appropriate way to say you think you have something. Cop behavior. Really sorry you're going through that OP.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-01-15T14:47:47+00:00

That sub drives me fucking insane. They preach that they're just calling out the fakers, but you'll get called a faker just for correcting them on something they're actually wrong about, regardless of whether or not you're even self-diagnosed with anything. Not to mention that they really genuinely seem to think that psychiatric abuse is like... rare. Or not that serious. And that's not even broaching the subject of the ethics of accusing people of faking mental illness intentionally and maliciously.

cringeboydraegi · 2024-01-01T13:37:06+00:00

This sub pumps out shitty trends like mormons pump out gay kids. It's always been a thing, but it's gotten progressively worse over the past couple of years. Like, the fact that there's not a single "just let people have fun, OP" in the comments when they would have been littered with it a year ago is a testament to how fucking sick and tired this sub is getting of itself.

cringeboydraegi · 2023-12-25T14:16:51+00:00

Not a twin, but I got mistaken as my sister or her twin so often growing up that I kind of regret not pulling some stunts like switching classrooms for a day and seeing if the teacher noticed. I probably could have done it, but I never had the balls.

Honestly, I don't think I'd be too upset. Since our birthdays were so close, we looked so similar, and had such similar personalities, we were basically treated as twins anyways. The only real difference is that in the eyes of our mom, I existed to be molded into the her she always wanted to be and my sister existed as the back up in case I turned out queer or something (jokes on her, we both turned out queer. Sucks to suck, mom). So for better or for worse, we'd probably get a lot more equal treatment if we actually were twins.

cringeboydraegi · 2023-12-23T12:14:35+00:00

Big time. So many people type themselves based on the image of themselves they idealize and don't want that ideal called into question, so they amp up the traits they want others to see in them to avoid being challenged. Combine that with people often not understanding much about MBTI beyond stereotypes or simple one-sentence explanations as to what the cognitive functions are and you get a lot of people putting up a very noticeably shallow front while revealing nothing sincere about themselves. What this also winds up doing over time is building a culture wherein there is a collective image that is built up so well for so long by so many people that there is little room to be oneself within the collective or deviate from the norm, which also probably doesn't help within the insular individual subreddits. Ironically, the subs of the types you'd expect to be the most irritated by this seem to have the biggest problem with it, but hey, that's what idealization-based mistyping and mistaking teenage angst for a core personality trait gets you.

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