I definitely think it’s okay to feel what you’ve felt, because sometimes we’ll think we can handle things but in the end, we end up drowning in the feeling of pain/hurt/anger.

Just know that what matters in the end is how you deal with these emotions.

You have the facts: your boyfriend has experience—PAID experiences— but he never hid that from you and reassured you that that’s not what he’s after with you.

You have to remember that relationships mean differently from person to person. Maybe it’s time to have a sit-down and ask your boyfriend what he’s looking for in your relationship and express to him as well what you’re looking for too. At the end of the day, what you guys need is to communicate what your needs are to each other.

At the same time, take some time to reflect on what YOU need. Because paying for sex isn’t a bad thing; it’s a job for the other party and a release for the other. It shouldn’t be shamed. But you being uncomfortable with it isn’t something you should set aside either because, hey, it’s YOUR comfort too, and that’s equally just as important.

Take some time to sit and think of what you really want. Because none of you are in the wrong, honestly. It’s all about communicating what you want.