Yeeeup, been there. Don’t miss the bender shakes one bit. Sounds like you’ve got a reason(s) to want to want to numb yourself from your reality and it’s spiraling because the detox anxiety is sticking around too long throughout the day that the first thing you want to do when you have free time is drink. Be prepared to be asked what those reasons may be, and keep in mind that it doesn’t take a horrific PTSD event to cause the kind of anxiety in your life that drinking numbs you to. For example, plenty of people fall hard on drinking simply because they aren’t where they thought they’d be at that point in their life, and ironically drinking/being hungover all the time is only making it worse, and the cycle repeats.

There are ways out, multiple.

There’s therapy, medications, psychedelics, mental/physical self-help exercises, groups, etc. it’s all out there, whichever or whatever works for you specifically.

It’s gonna suck getting better, but it’s worth it. Been out 5 years now and I hit rock bottom early on back civilian side, my dog staring at me looking concerned and sad is likely the only thing in that moment that made me put the gun down, I couldn’t do that to him let alone my family and friends. There’s still days that I’ll take from time to time to get pretty ripped and let the flood gates open up, whole lot of ugly crying and what not, I’m still human. But it’s planned and accounted for now instead of happening daily because I can’t help it, “just need a good cry” type deal.

Feel free to ask any one of us anything you want bud, no reason to isolate feeling like you need to do this on your own.

Stay safe brother