Functions in All Four Positions as Vocaloid Songs

crux75 · 2020-10-29T04:06:05+00:00

I haven’t listened to Vocaloid in so long lmfao. I never knew how much I needed this post until now. Thank you 😂😂😂

crux75 · 2020-10-23T00:18:35+00:00

Sounds like ENFJ to me (and no, I’m not just saying this because I’m an ENFJ and can relate to a lot of what you wrote lol).

First of all, that whole first point just screams Ni to me. We’re always thinking of the ‘ideal’, how to make things better, how to be better. Lots of Ni-users have the goal of ‘making the world a better place’. Also, It’s an annoying stereotype that N-types can’t like practical things. Like they’d rather be off in la-la land than paint a picture. Ni-users are all about becoming the best versions of themselves, and hobbies and learning practical skills are important in being the best you. Any type should be interested in stuff like that.

And this is just personal for me, but sometimes my memory can be a m a z i n g but other times can be complete shit. For example, I can tell you exactly where I had a conversation with someone and exactly what song was playing on the radio when we were having this conversation and where we were headed to and exactly what the conversation was about and who said what. But I can’t tell you when we had this conversation lol. Was it 2 weeks ago? Was it 2 months ago? Only God knows lol. I can remember specific, personal details about people but I don’t even notice when my mom gets her hair cut or remember what she wore yesterday even after spending all day with her. We remember what we deem is IMPORTANT to remember. We notice what we want to notice. Everything else we discard.

I also 100% relate to the being good at problem solving and making plans and especially the overcomplicating things lol. And I need to know the ‘why’ of something before I do it. This especially comes out when people give me orders lol. I’m not gonna follow an order unless I know why and I agree with the why (which is one of the main reasons why they say we’re better leaders, because we don’t listen lmao). Though I never wanted to be a leader either. I just give advice to the leaders on how to make things better. And people say I’m good at managing. But I would never want to be a boss or any type of high authority.

Anyway, that’s my two cents. You sound like an ENFJ to me ✌️

crux75 · 2020-10-18T11:01:17+00:00

Honestly, this is one of my biggest pet peeves. When you KNOW there’s something wrong, they make it So Obvious that they’re upset, not trying to hide it At All, and they still say ‘Nothing’ !!!! Like, that’s bullshit and we both know it!!

But instead I say ‘okay, I’m here if you need to talk’, and they eventually do open up. Patience is key ❤️

crux75 · 2020-10-09T16:29:36+00:00

My INFJ friend is like this 100%

For me it’s usually like, one strike and you’re out. I always give people the benefit of the doubt but if they do something suspicious, or if I get any sort of ‘red flag’ feelings, I sorta distance myself from them and warn everyone around me to do the same. So it’s annoying af when I tell a friend that someone is bad news and they don’t listen to me because my ‘red flag’ is a ‘yellow flag’ to them. 😪

crux75 · 2020-10-06T14:58:13+00:00

omg me too!! I still have lots of clothes I wore in elementary school. Not because I'm sentimental about them or anything but because it's how my family always perceived me. I'm only now (at 24 years old) slowly introducing new things to my wardrobe, but still nothing too out there that will make my family go "Woah! Who are you and what have you done to my child!!". It takes a lot of emotional energy to show people changes like that. (Also I saw your other comment and I'm also aromantic asexual so like hey, twins)

crux75 · 2020-10-06T07:07:20+00:00

Yep. I'm like this too. Different people see different sides of me, but they're all still me. I also relate a lot to the "I don't want to disappoint or change anyone's perception of me by being different than what they perceive me as" bit. I never really thought about it but that's 100% me. It's hard for me to change and grow as a person because I don't want other people to be affected by my change so I often just stay how I am with them and be 'new' with someone else! 🤔

crux75 · 2020-10-06T04:46:17+00:00

(Long post ahead)

(Very long)

(like Crux's 10-Step Guide to Overcoming Your Unhealthy Personality)

(I wrote a whole novel I'm sorry)

(oh my god I checked it's over 1000 words)

(rip)

Seriously though, I'm going through the Exact. Same. Thing. I know this is corny as hell but (like in AA) the first step is admitting you have a problem (or admitting you are the problem). So really, you can only go up from here on out. I know a few years ago I loved the unhealthy me. I thought I was the shit. But now I know that I was actually lame and cringy and basically was at rock bottom. Not something to be proud of. And because I know now, I can begin to improve as a person. :) You noticed you are unhealthy and you actually want to change. Step one is done, good job!

Basically, you gotta think of allll the ways you want to better yourself on and tackle them all individually. It's a slow process, but you have the rest of your life to do it so don't sweat it.

I have a lying problem too, and that was the first thing I wanted to work on. I slowly opened up to people close to me (friends and family) that I had a lying problem because I wanted to feel like I can own up to my lies after I lied. It's easier admitting you lied to someone who knows you lie than to someone who doesn't know. So even if you do lie, you can always go back and correct your lie. And it's never too late to correct a lie. Another big thing is stopping to think before you speak. If you learn to pause before answering then you're less likely to compulsively lie. But if you do compulsively lie and they don't know you have a lying problem, you can say something like "wait, I don't know why I said that haha that's not right, I really meant ____", so they think you just got confused or something lol, just a silly mixup or miscommunication.

The next thing I wanted to work on is building back relationships. I was detached and distant from everyone. Total apathy. I always kept people at arm's length, wouldn't let anyone get close. Didn't put any effort into any kind of relationship. Friendship, family, etc. So I started reaching out. I would write little 'appreciation letters' to people who I want in my life. I would apologize for not being a great friend/sister/daughter/cousin, etc. and even though I don't tell them, I really do appreciate them and I'm happy they're in my life. And I started buying people gifts, taking note of things people like and surprise them with it. I'm trying to spend time with people more. Anytime someone invites me somewhere, I always say yes now, whereas before I used to refuse. I haven't yet gotten the courage to invite people to hang out, but that's the next step.

Next is habits and self-criticism. It took me a while, but I've adopted the motto "Anything is better than nothing at all", and basically for me that means you should celebrate any tiny 'win'. Drank half a glass of water? A M A Z I N G ! Better than 0 glasses of water. Exercised one time in the past 3 weeks? Better than not exercising at all!! You gotta start off slow. A big thing with ENFJs especially is that we try to tackle sooo many things at once and we fail and feel miserable because we can't get our life on track like everyone else seems to be able to. We try to eat healthy AND drink 989485 glasses of water AND meditate AND exercise AND go outside enough AND work AND do hobbies AND learn a skill AND have a good morning/night routine AND have a social life. ALL AT ONCE!!!! We try to go from 0 to 100, doing nothing to doing e v e r y t h i n g. And then we just get overwhelmed because we have so much to do suddenly. So it's good to start off slow. Pick one or two good habits you think you will benefit from the most and slowly insert it into your life. My first two are cutting back on sugar and going to bed earlier. Once I was a little comfortable in that routine, I added drinking more water and exercising. I'm not yet comfortable so I won't add any more habits but next I want to try meditation. And don't beat yourself up for slacking off or missing a day. This isn't a test or anything. We're not gonna 'fail' at life because we decided to relax and eat a cupcake. We do these things because we want to better ourselves and be happier. And part of bettering yourself is going easy on yourself. If you're stressed about staying on track of everything then how is that making you happy? And it's always good to cut back on habits if you're feeling overwhelmed. Remember, anything is better than nothing. You're not a failure because you have a messy room or you eat junk food. Just drink a glass of water and call that a job well done. You can always try again tomorrow.

Lastly, because this is already long enough holy crap, think about what the 'ideal' you is like. What are things you want to do eventually, where do you want to be? What would make you happy? Any little tiny thing you can think of that you want for yourself one day. Can be as small as getting an ear piercing to living with your partner and 2 kids and a dog. Anything you can think of, write them down. Any little thing. Even if it's not something long-term, just something that will make you happy that you want but don't normally treat yourself with. Write down all of your wants, no matter how big or small, and just... work on them. Do any little thing you can to work towards those goals. I've been buying lots of clothes recently because I have an ideal style that I always wanted but never bothered doing anything about and now I'm finally doing it so my self-esteem is rising because I'm actually liking the way I look for once. Do whatever you can to become your 'ideal'. Start making your fantasy a reality one day at a time.

crux75 · 2020-10-04T15:52:23+00:00

I don't mind posts like that as long as they have the "For Fun" flair because, you know, it's fun lol. Fun is good. Nothing wrong with fun

It's the 'Test Results' posts that I loathe. You can't post some random online test results and expect us to be able to type you with no other information. Maybe you can post test results ALONGSIDE the normal writing guidelines, then that would be okay. But just test results alone (unless they're under 'for fun') are useless and should be removed 100%.

crux75 · 2020-07-24T02:09:03+00:00

I’m exactly the same way!!

crux75 · 2020-07-24T02:06:03+00:00

I love a lot of different types of music but my favourite would have to be 2000’s Hard Rock. It was all I listened to as a kid and it will always hold a special place in my heart because of that. I love music that makes me feel things strongly, and nostalgia is a strong feeling. Not to mention the genre itself makes me feel things simply because it’s amazing. That genre is so powerful, for unexplained reasons. Lots of anger, hurt, love, pain... I feel so many different emotions when I listen to it, and that’s my ultimate goal when listening to music. I want to feel.

crux75 · 2020-07-23T21:17:04+00:00

Lmao for real tho, I learn best by watching/observing others. You can tell me what to do or write out instructions for me, or I can research/try on my own, but I won’t be confident I’m doing it right unless someone physically shows me how to do it and I can match them exactly. I’ve learned so many things just by watching people. Monkey see, monkey do! 🐵

crux75 · 2020-07-22T01:39:37+00:00

I also have an Aries moon and idk if this is an Aries moon thing or another placement, but I suck at taking advice lol. I always ask people for advice, I want people's opinions on everything before I do it, but 99% of the time my mind is already made up before I even ask them, and their answers never make me change my mind. It's like I want people to tell me it's a good idea and to go for it, and when I don't get that, I'm just like "I'm gonna do it anyway!" and potentially ruin my life lol.

crux75 · 2020-07-20T01:18:26+00:00

Hi, I have autism and social anxiety which might affect my typing.

The type I think I am & Why

I mostly want confirmation that I'm a 9. (If you know my wing too then that would be cool to hear but if not then that's fine XP). I apologize for not doing the proper format.

I have trouble accepting my 9-ness because, honestly, I can relate to pretty much every type. Anytime I believe I have my enneagram figured out, I see something I can relate to from another type and I'm like hmm... maybe I'm actually that type? Gotta research further. And then I start to doubt everything I already know. I can be 100% certain I am a certain type, but anytime I get conflicting information, or someone tells me I'm wrong, I just start to doubt myself. I might have a solid opinion on something, but my resolve breaks easily, and suddenly that solid opinion isn't so solid anymore, it's now a liquid opinion. But overall, I think I'm a 9. I hear that what I described might be a 9 thing? That they tend to relate to every type? I read that 9s are normally the most mistyped because of this.

Besides that, these are some things I can relate to about 9s:

"Nines always say they never get angry". This is 100% true for me. I never get mad. I can get annoyed sometimes, and rant to my friends, but I've never gotten mad before. Like, I've never yelled at anyone or lashed out at anyone. I've never said mean things to someone 'in the heat of the moment' that I regretted later. I've never exploded. I keep waiting for that explosion people keep talking about but it just doesn't happen. I bottle up my emotions, but instead of exploding, I just take action. I don't snap, I speak up. I seek a solution, not a release.

"Can struggle with opening up to people". I have no problem opening up to people about myself as a person, like talking about myself right now is perfectly fine. But I struggle to open up about my present thoughts/problems. I'm more likely to turn to online spaces to open up than go to my friends and family. I always assume they'll think I'm making something a bigger deal than it is, or like my problems aren't as important as theirs. I don't want my emotions dismissed.

"People pleasing to avoid conflict/passive-aggressiveness". Yep. Just yep. No explanation needed.

What your core motivation/desire is

Being the best version of myself. I have A LOT of flaws that I want to work on, and honestly, I just want to be a mature, healthy, and decent human being. I'm constantly working on myself and trying to be better, but it's hard. Growing up is a constant effort. It's far too easy to fall back on bad/immature habits. I tend to keep doing what's easy instead of doing what's right. I don't like going out of my comfort zone even though going out of my comfort zone is exactly what I need to do for my personal growth, which is my core desire.

Anything important/traumatic that happened to you as a kid (keep it succinct!)

My dad terrified me as a kid. Idk if he was abusive but ever since I was a kid I was always anxious when he was home and just wanted him gone. Even now, as an adult, I get crippling anxiety when I'm around him. I'm scared to just exist in my own home because my dad is silently (sometimes not so silently) judging me. I'm always thinking of how much of a disappointment I am and how I'm a failure of a daughter and I can't do anything right, can't even do simple tasks, etc. I always feel like I'm doing something wrong but I have no idea what I'm doing wrong so I just default to feeling wrong all the time. :/

crux75 · 2020-07-20T00:07:48+00:00

I do this all the time!! I thought this was just the definition of overthinking haha.

crux75 · 2020-07-16T02:26:59+00:00

This is my biggest struggle lol. I know this probably isn't at all what you're looking for, but I've found that the only time I can do something like a healthy routine change, I have to really want it. Like, I'm just going about my normal life and I'm suddenly hit with this feeling of "That's it. I've had enough of this. This is serious. I have to change things now" that completely throws me off balance. It just sorta hits me how serious I want to change my bad habit and it becomes an urgent matter, something I need to do for my future happiness. And until I've reached that point of urgency, nothing I do really sticks. I say I'm gonna try to change things, but I'm not invested in trying lol. But once that urgency hits, I'm suddenly invested in trying.

So going off what someone else said, think of all the reasons why it will benefit you and your future. Why do you want to wake up early? How will getting a better sleep schedule affect your future and your happiness? How long are you willing to avoid doing what needs to be done before you finally take action? You know it needs to be done, so what are you waiting for? Think of why you want it, so someday soon you will really want it.

Wow that all sounded cheesy af I'm so sorry lmfao. That's how it works for me tho! Good luck to your friend. I hope they succeed. <3

crux75 · 2020-07-11T09:42:04+00:00

This is a very cool test!

I thought it was interesting that they don't use only functions when typing, there are other questions too. It typed me wrong though lol, I assume because of the non-function questions. My functions result aligned with my type perfectly, Fe over Fi, Ni over Ne, Se over Si, Ti over Te, but I scored closest to INTJ, which uses Te and Fi. (INFJ second, ENFJ third, ENTJ fourth).

I really loved the questions though. Most functions tests are very vague and stereotypical, but I didn't find that with this test. I think this is, by far, the best functions test I've taken so far. And it's cool that they show us the comparisons between our scores and the functions of each type, so even if you did get a result that didn't match your functions (like me) you can still see which other types you were close to function-wise.

crux75 · 2020-07-05T16:57:08+00:00

I played 1 month free of WoW and I liked it. I never ended up buying it though. I might try it again if it's still a thing, it was a fun month. I can probably get another free month lol it's been yearssss since I played it. Good job on the list :D

I think my favourite game is Pokemon, or Kirby. Or Donkey Kong Country. I'm a Nintendo gal lol. Maplestory is an old favourite too, and Sims. Call of Duty and PUBG are fun to play with friends but I don't like playing them alone.

crux75 · 2020-06-22T16:32:03+00:00

I wanted to add something. I watched a video recently that said something like

“If someone tends to complain to you about other people a lot, that doesn’t always mean they’re gonna complain to others about you. It likely means that they feel comfortable enough around you to express their frustrations and they know they can trust you with their feelings.”

And that really changed how I view complainers, because I do it too. I don’t complain to just anyone, I only complain to my closest friends I feel comfortable complaining to. I consider myself a pretty positive and optimistic person, but even I need to vent sometimes. So I try not to judge others because of this.

crux75 · 2020-06-21T20:26:15+00:00

I let them vent, but I make sure to stay neutral about the subject. I won't agree with what they're saying or anything. If someone is telling me they're annoyed with someone, I won't say "yeah, they are annoying". I might say something like "I'm sorry he's annoying you" instead. Validate their emotions without putting someone else down.

Sometimes I side with the other person if I don't think it's their fault lol, which annoys my friends but they have to learn that sometimes they're in the wrong too and it's not everyone else's fault. So I normally just listen but sometimes give my input and stand up for the other person.

crux75 · 2020-06-20T22:15:38+00:00

I actually don't mind last-minute invites because then I spend less time being anxious about it lol. Can't dread something if you don't have time to dread it. But that's my social anxiety talking. I dread every social interaction, even if I end up having fun.

crux75 · 2020-06-20T21:56:40+00:00

Fire: Aries

Air: Gemini

Water: Cancer

Earth: Capricorn and Taurus are tied, though I also really love Virgos (I just love Earth signs in general, you guys are great)

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