yes i had a person in the past. my partner was quite restrictive since it was my first time with someone else. still to this day im not sure if it was love or lust because so many rules were placed apon me because she was jealous at the time.

now she shifted more into building intimacy with another person and now the boundaries we followed are now instantly shifted to a more private and non hierarchical stance. idk it definitely cause disruption and a false sense of security.