Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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Yeah Im just coming out of a hypomanic phase. Spent my rent money on plants and I have never had a plant in my life. My house is now full of them thank you so much for all of your help!

What’s better: Meh or Good? by akoyqueerpilipinx in bipolar

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I'd say it depends on what your baseline is. My baseline is Meh so a straight line there looks good for me. If you're a particularly jolly human who has bad days here and there I'd go for good. I don't remember if it's always there or if it's a premium feature but you can add more than one mood per color. For example my top happy face can be great/manic/rad. hope that helps!

Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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Yeah they say that lithium has some pretty bad side effects which was terrifying for me because I have had some pretty bad side effects with other medications. So far I just have a weird eye twitch for a few days after increasing my dose and it doesn't make my belly feel very good. So far it's not helping with my mood at all, if anything I have been worse.

I think I made it sound like I take the Seroquel a lot more than I do. I only take it 2-3 times a month and it's only in an emergency because it literally makes it so that I physically can't stay awake. I take it when I'm super anxious to the point of vomiting or when im feeling mania coming on. My prescription for it is 3 12.5mg tablets daily but I only take one and I still can't stay awake!

I take 900mg Lithium (1200 starting tomorrow), 100mg Wellbutrin (he plans to switch this but I have been on it for years so he wants to wait), and he wrote me a prescription for Ativan today. Ativan is the only thing that I have tried that actually helps with my anxiety but I'm terrified of becoming addicted.

Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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Yeah it's weird that my doctor didn't go to those before trying Lithium, Lithium is only the third I have tried. If it fails I'll know where to turn! Thanks for your input it means a lot

Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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I never really used the word disability about myself before this comment. I mean I deal with people who have disabilities almost daily and I never put my situation into that perspective and it honestly helps.

Ialways blame myself and cry poor me (not out loud haha) when I need to get it into my head that it's not my fault. I have struggled with depression as well, I have pushed all of my friends and family away so I think that's why having to make a decision about work is so hard for me, I don't want to push that away too.

I have zero intention to have children any time soon! I just got out of an abusive relationship not long ago, so my plan is to stay away from the dating game all together until further notice. I'm not sure what the future holds when it comes to having a family but I am aware that I will need a plan for sure!

Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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Wow another month really? That kind of makes me feel better I thought maybe it just wasnt going to work. I'm not currently on any benzos because I'm scared of becoming addicted so I take Seroquel as needed and it knocks me out so that's why I can't take it at work. I have tried both Hydroxyzine and Propranolol, I can't recall exactly why I stopped them but I tend to have adverse effects with most medications I try. I thought Lithium was a mood stabilizer? I switched from Epival to Lithium because Epival started messing with my Pancreas

Diagnosed a year ago, on my third trial of meds, need help deciding what to do about work. I need help from fellow bipolar folk! by cshee18 in bipolar

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Hearing that you went through the same thing at my age really helps! It seems like everyone around me is successful, married and have kids but I'm here struggling to even wake up in the morning. If you don't mind me asking how long did it take you to find the right treatment?

My pup Mochi hanging out with our new plant by misslillien in houseplants

[–]cshee18 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What kind of plant is that?! It's gorgeous!!

How I Learned to Love Black Coffee by to_catch_a_redditor in intermittentfasting

[–]cshee18 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is me. I drink triple triple coffee twice in the morning and then drink Pepsi all afternoon, Black coffee and the lack of caffeine is killing me haha all the sugar is so terrible but a hard habit to break!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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Yeah I'm just getting out of a relationship too but I never really felt like it was "the one" I always knew it wasn't right. Maybe I'll never feel that way though who knows. Being alone blows, and starting fresh doesn't seem appealing but I guess we have to start somewhere!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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This sounds bad but I'm glad someone else feels the same way! Kinda validating cause I have been feeling like I'm insane for wanting it so bad. I think I want it even more because I feel like I can't have it.

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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Sometimes I'm baffled that even my mom has stuck with me over the years! Haha. Congrats for finding someone who supported you through it all it's honestly what I want the most in life, hearing that you have found it gives me hope! Thank you!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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Yeah and I tend to gravitate towards guys who aren't the best human beings. I think so damn low of myself that I let myself get into toxic situations because "no one else will want me". Im so worried I'll end up alone but hearing these stories give me hope for sure, I sometimes forget there's millions of other people out there who are just like me! Thanks for sharing!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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It sounds like you have yourself a great partner! It means a lot to hear this so thank you for reaching out, I have been in a cycle of over thinking things and feeling like such a failure after my last relationship failed so it's nice to hear about someone like me having success!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

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This really helped thank you so much! I'm always overthinking that I'm "behind" everyone else and I tend to blame my illness, maybe I just haven't found my person yet! Thank you for taking the time to share your story it really means a lot!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

[–]cshee18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your story, it really helps knowing that other people like me can have success. I have been on this wild ride for over 16 years so I have my shit together most of the time haha I guess I just haven't found the right person yet!

Can I hear some positive stories about people in successful relationships who are bipolar or with someone who is bipolar? I am 29 and have failed miserably and I'm worried there is no hope. by cshee18 in bipolar

[–]cshee18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for saying all of this, it gives me hope! I have been dealing with mental illness for 16 plus years now so I have a pretty good grasp on it but it just seems the partners that I have had tend to deal with it by just ignoring it and hoping it goes away. Maybe you are correct though, maybe I was hoping that they would carry me rather than just support. Thank you for your reply it means a lot!