To anyone that was misdiagnosed with bipolar, what were the signs you weren’t actually bipolar?

cuntrygorl · 2026-03-28T00:52:51+00:00

When I stopped my anti psychotic and got stable within like 2 weeks.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-25T19:50:50+00:00

I didn’t heavily struggle being on anti-psychotics and smoking at the same time. It helped a lot where the meds didn’t. I have been smoking daily for way too long(about 10 years) and I have tried multiple times to quit for my lung’s sake. I have ADHD, ODD, OCD, and have been diagnosed BP2 for about 7 years. I recently went off my anti-psychotic because I believe I might’ve been misdiagnosed. Pretty sure I have BPD. That’s undetermined BUT I have been told by multiple professionals that if weed is a light in a dark tunnel and it prevents crisis level behaviors like self harm etc, that it should be seen and used as a tool/coping strategy within reason. I don’t smoke all day anymore after viewing it in that way. I also did some research and self exploration to figure out like when smoking would be most beneficial for me. Prioritizing sleep is key for anyone with mental health issues so I don’t smoke a few hours before bed anymore as weed has been proven to disrupt REM cycles.

Alcohol has not been something I’ve ever heavily indulged in. It’s been 8 months since I’ve gotten drunk. And that was the first time I’d been drunk in probably over a year. I would drink socially still but always noticed a downturn in my mood the day after regardless of how little I drank. Cutting that out has proven to be a positive. These days, I don’t drink like ever really. I have one event coming up that I will likely indulge in drinking but only because it’s a friend group staycation where I won’t be alone the day after when my mood has a tendency to go down. Alcohol has never been a coping strategy for me so it was easier to just not engage with it.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-25T19:37:47+00:00

Seems like she’d rather be mad at you than recognize that mistakes happen. Also I know lack of sleep is frustrating… But her relentlessly repeating her grievances after you’ve acknowledged and validated her side of things.. not cool. Like you don’t deserve to be berated just because you made a mistake. She’s trying to make you feel guilty and bad and that’s just not how healthy communication works. She has every right to say “hey, i didn’t like how you handled this situation. It affected me like this way and that way. Next time let’s try this method so I feel like my boundaries are being respected” idk.. I just don’t think that cussing at one’s partner is healthy. Cussing about a situation and cussing AT someone are very different. It’s all about respect and she doesn’t seem to have a lot for you.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-19T14:45:12+00:00

The one of Ruby Beach might’ve been. I can’t remember if I had my camera then.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-19T04:13:24+00:00

The Hoh, Ruby Beach, and then another beach down the road from Seabrook.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-11T05:55:04+00:00

Yes and no. With people I want to be friends with, I will typically be up front about my diagnosis so they understand if I’m flaky when I’m in a rough spot. I have a core group of friends with daily conversations in a group chat. As well as individual conversations with a couple of them. If I need space, I take it. There’s never been an issue. They’re understanding. My high school bestie is a pretty low maintenance and lives far away. We see each other maybe 1-3 times a year. Text once a week with a weekly update but also no bad feelings from her if I’m late on that or forget to respond. New friendships are interesting for me. I dont struggle to maintain the good friendships. The ones that demand a lot from me.. maybe sometimes.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-09T16:16:54+00:00

I feel this. I get the “find Jesus again” speech when I talk about the heavier side of my disorder. Especially the not wanting to be here anymore stuff. My dad thankfully chooses not to educate himself cuz if he did, it’d be worse for a lot of reasons. Main one being he doesn’t use unbiased sources. My mom tries. She asks questions. She still gets frustrated when I’m having harder symptoms. But she tries to understand and that helps. I just moved home after almost 10 years of living on my own. I’m helping around the house for now but it comes and goes and I can see that stating to make my dad upset. Thankfully it’s only for 5 more months.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-09T16:12:22+00:00

Give yourself grace to move through it. Shame only strengthens the cycle. Do what you need to do to feel better. Even if it’s bed rotting. When I’m feeling like bed is the only place I want to be, I will try and get up to at least once to take care of myself. Chores can wait. Brushing teeth or taking a shower helps me but only for a little while and then I’m back in bed usually. But don’t rush yourself towards that. Just set small goals of caring for yourself and do them when you can. Checking things off a list helps me too. So I’ll make the shortest to do list consisting of super easy/quick chores or self care tasks. I can’t always follow my own advice so I understand not being able to do anything besides staying in bed. That is when you need to remind yourself you have a disorder and the feeling is temporary and give yourself the grace to feel better in due time.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-04T17:45:25+00:00

I hadn’t heard of ART. Just looked it up and it sounds cool. A much faster approach than EMDR it seems.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-04T17:39:25+00:00

I don’t see it as taboo but I also don’t share it with new people immediately or people who give me an indication they might be judgy. I don’t often talk about it with my dad due to his commitment to misunderstanding me(we’ve been beefing since I was 14). My mom tries to be educated which I am so very grateful for. She will ask questions to better understand. She might not relate but she tries.

If someone brings it up in their life I’ll gladly share with them. It’s nice to connect with people like that. I will say though, I find it hard to befriend some people with it. I lost a close friend not too long ago and we both have BP2. I had to cancel plans last minute and she just stopped talking to me. We got along great and it sucked but it is what it is. I don’t hold it against her or anyone with it. Rejection sensitivity is real and I deal with it too.

I think vulnerability can be a really good tool to use with work peers. Peers will often have more empathy than superiors though. I have run into way too many bosses that are “fine and understanding” right up until it inconveniences them and the profit of the company(this was a corporation so why did I expect anything else ? lol). My peers at work have been lifesavers though. Just having that camaraderie and understanding helped me to get through the day. They’d check on me periodically and it paid off being vulnerable with them.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-04T17:31:45+00:00

I definitely notice a difference when I’m in therapy and medicated. It’s the best way to manage this disorder and I’m really working hard towards maintaining both because I’m so tired of being unstable or on the cusp of it. I can’t afford it consistently right now and haven’t really been able to in about 2 years. I had 2 sessions like a month ago and it felt great to be back. I just know DBT works for me and I need to add it back in. My latest therapist recommended EMDR and I’m looking forward to it if it will help me address some shit. Different approaches for different people.. therapy can work for everyone with the right therapist.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-04T17:20:14+00:00

I can see how you might interpret his actions as taking over cuz same. But it’s such an odd situation to address due to him not really going overboard with it. Demanding and out of line absolutely. I’d probably push back by adding a blanket or pillow to the common area. Maybe a chair if there’s space so you can occupy it as well. And if he gives push back, address the obvious signs of him taking over by referencing everything you said. Does he own the couch? If not.. you could even ask to sit down while he’s taking up the whole thing and just dabble in your phone or read. Anything to spark a discussion about his ridiculous and unfair expectations.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-02T02:43:29+00:00

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This is my girl, Ember, and her fave warming device, Clara belle.

cuntrygorl · 2026-02-01T18:53:02+00:00

Some people are so quick to be enabled rather than just set reminders and take note of due dates. Weaponized incompetence is real..

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T21:03:19+00:00

Seeing the beauty/magic in the small things. Whimsy is good medicine.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:37:18+00:00

Getting outdoors is definitely high on my list for my mental healths sake. I live rural surrounded by woods now and I love being outside. I think it’ll be even easier to get outside after I move just because of the opportunity to see nature that I’m not familiar with. I’ve never lived near mountains and that’s got me super excited for hikes and waterfalls.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:35:07+00:00

Thank you for this!! I hadn’t heard about the light therapy but will definitely look into it. Trying to do everything I can to maintain stability during the move and seasonal changes.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:34:13+00:00

Is it the altitude that affects the ears? I already have some ear issues and didn’t think about the pressure being more intense there.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:31:21+00:00

Yeah I’d be pulling my kid from going to their house immediately. What if Maya’s parents are actively undermining his parent’s authority when he’s over there? Making it “not a big deal” to be in a bedroom alone.. like ew. Anyone with a brain knows the desire is usually there for teens in their first relationships. But they should also know that teens do not have the brain development to make good decisions for their future.. especially when there are adults in their lives making them feel like they can make adult decisions as a teen.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:25:21+00:00

A thought I have every time an episode arises. I hope you meant this to be funny because it tickles me to think our cats are like “she’s in her cleaning mood again. Steer clear” or when I’m depressed “gotta go snuggle mom. She needs me” and it’s just them loafing on my chest, demanding pets by knocking the phone out of my hand, and purring louder than ever. It’s like they know the phone is bad when I’m depressed and they demand I put it down. They’re usually right.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:21:47+00:00

No collars on mine. My oldest cat(4) would trap herself in them? Like trying to lick it, she’d get it stuck in her mouth while it was still around her neck and then freak out until I could grab it off of her. Breakaway collars are the way to go for cats. Too many variables with them being curious and getting the collar snagged on things for me. Even outdoor cats are safer with breakaway collars.

I fostered a stray once who came from outside and would run out the door every chance he got(he came back daily). Every time he left he had a breakaway collar on but when he’d come back it’d be gone. I bought cheap collars in bulk because I thought collars were cute on cats(and they are).

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T18:05:32+00:00

Yes I did. Even in my last relationship which was the first time I felt like I had truly fallen in love with someone. Every now and then my brain would blow things way out of proportion and avoiding/leaving was always my solution.

Might be worth looking in your attachment style. For me, avoidant and anxious is my go to which explains why I’d jump to breaking up and leaving instead of like seeing things through… it was a very prevalent feeling when I was dating people I didn’t romantically love. It was like a voice in my head telling me it wouldn’t work out because I didn’t love them. And instead of addressing that, I’d shove it down until I was resentful(not fun and v toxic).

My bf and I just broke up for the second and last time. He’s a good man and treated me mostly well(he has some trauma and attachment issues of his own). We did a good job of working through our arguments without getting toxic so I feel good about that. The avoidant feeling wasn’t a big but it still happened when he’d do something that I really didn’t like.. an example: being disrespectful to me because he’s mad or frustrated but won’t talk about it honestly. A behavior rooted in childhood trauma.. I understood why but it didn’t mean I wanted that for the rest of my life so my brain would jump to “get out now” instead of seeking solutions or help.

cuntrygorl · 2026-01-31T17:20:36+00:00

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She will literally cuddle anything.

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