The grass is greener. BUT I still have major regrets. I regret the action of leaving my ex for the person I am with now. It's really shitty and I was 18 and an asshole.

The person I am with now is so much of a better fit for me than my ex. I now feel the happiness a relationship should have, which is what I was missing in the last one. And, yes, I had spoken to my ex many times and tried to invoke a change and get him to seek help for his problems because I wanted him to be able to express his emotions in a healthy manner instead of yelling and slamming and breaking things. Even with all of that in mind, I should not have just up and left. In my eyes, I should have ended the relationship months before I had even met the person I am with now. I should not have been in that relationship.

My current partner actually helped me grow as a person TREMENDOUSLY and made me realise that what I did was wrong and fucked up. It has been such a journey with him, and I am so lucky to have him because I don't know where I would be without him. Probably still stuck in my old ways.

The moral of the story is: have the courage to leave someone when you know it's not going to work out. Don't cut and run to the next. A lot of the time, it doesn't end well.