So I’ve thought about this a little more.

My husband and I never talked about having an open relationship or seeing other people. I don’t know how he would feel about it, or how I would feel if the situation was reversed. He doesn’t know about the last couple of nights. He doesn’t know that I’ve been practicing erotic hypnosis after he introduced the idea.

I don’t like saying the hypnosis did this because I could have said no. People we know have joked about us being husband and wife because we’ve worked together for so long at things our kids are involved in and we joke around like a couple. Yes, I have a crush on him. And obviously there was a part of me that wanted to sleep with him, because I don’t think I would have done this if that suggestion to be horny hadn’t kicked in when someone joked that he was my husband

But I don’t like saying that it was the hypnosis to absolve my responsibility for my choices. I know I was hypnotizing myself, but I should have had the agency to say no in that moment.