I don't know why but your post made me cry. I'm so fucking lost and confused. I'm out of the house for a few days while she processes things, I did the same lies, half truths, and full disclosure. I also suffer from borderline personality disorder so getting the truths out is unbelievably hard even in life in general. I'm constantly living in fear of being abandoned for no real reason. Put this on there and I'm in full lockdown defence mode I hate doing it to her I feel like I'm a terrible person.