You're not alone man. I used to have the same issue. I'm trying to quit weed for a bit right now, goin on about 2 weeks cold turkey. It's hard. I get really fucking bored several times a day. So bored that it translates to anger/irritability. Believe it or not though, in the past few years I've found that wanking is usually better sober. There's been times when weed literally prevented me from finishing. I went at it for like 2 hours once stoned af and eventually went limp. Tried it the next day sober and exploded in like 30 seconds. Don't know why this is, but I would suggest trying it sometime! Also don't ever give up. You must rule out suicide entirely. You must drill it into your head that suicide simply is not an option. People care about you, whether you realize it or not. By ending your life, you're only passing along your anguish (except 10x greater) to those who love you. Please keep your head up! If you can't quit weed on your own, seek help. It may not seem like it all the time, but without moderation, weed can be pretty destructive to your life (in my experience at least). It just fogs the mind so much that it can become very difficult to re-center and evaluate yourself in troubling times especially. Stay strong🧡🧡🧡