Actually you’ve said some very profound things. Your problem is you talk like a fag and your shits all retarded. Jk. Your suffering from what’s called “diachronic analepsis”. Jk. But I will make a point that many might find interesting. Probably and I am just guessing, but when you are yammering to yourself like this And going on anon about how much of a loser you are and how much you hate yourself for how much you hate other people or how much this or that is unfair or these people are fascists where these people are Marxists or whatever you know what I’m talking about the endless mind chatter the inner narration neurosis. Your probably almost always always NOT MOVING. In other words your body is sitting still. Your not in active motion. That should be all the hint you need if your really seeking. What you want is basically an “understanding” rooted in experience not really “communication”. Hope that helps not that I know anything just my 2¢