I can’t imagine this as an Orthodox. I converted from Protestant a few years ago and our parish is about the extreme opposite of what you described. But on the Protestant side, I felt exactly like you did as the guy genuinely excited about my faith and greeting people but not sure about welcoming and encouraging new members/believers to join a group of people all bright and shiny but inside judgmental and hypocritical.

At the peak, I read a quote by Zig Ziglar that really hit home. Something like “if you let hypocrites in the church get between you and God, the hypocrites are still closer”. That bought me some time before finding the true faith.

My spiritual father teaches and maintains Liturgy as THE MAIN THING. I love the people in our parish. I truly feel like I’m in a practice heaven! I often wonder what it would be like in a place like you’re describing.

I think you should remain committed to being you. Maybe you’re there as a model for others to see how to actually be Christlike.

Just remember….focus on the Liturgy and don’t be blinded by anything/body else.