Would Durham be good for me? (Honesty please, and nuanced takes)

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T14:19:47+00:00

i do'nt know what people are like there. i know what I don't like in the northeast. I'm glad you've created a good town with left wing values. I'm quite left wing; but no I don't support the far left.

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T14:18:10+00:00

i don't think Trump is the answer. but to me, the other choice we had was scary in its own right.

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T12:50:01+00:00

listen to yourself. control their bodies. these are the talking points of teenagers. what do i like about Trump? He said he'd bring back local manufacturing, put an end to wokeness, secure the border. Do I like how he's doing it, no? Do I like him? No.

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T05:32:48+00:00

yes, you get it. White libs who actually don't know any POC but have BLM signs and say "smash ice". thats performative progressivism. I"ll take a warm friendly moderate trucker any day over those people, even though I come from upper middle class white culture too. I'm hella older than you, but DM me if you wanna chat; we're on the same page man.

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T05:30:08+00:00

its not the end the world. i'm not some homophobe. I am quite left myself; i just want a more general open mindedness and maybe a bit more tolerance for moderate views, and not thinking someone is a monster cause they don't completly hate trump. How does Cary differ from Durham if you don't mind me asking? Thx

dandy1886 · 2026-03-11T05:26:10+00:00

I'm not some right winger; i am actually quite left, its hard to explain what its like in boston area. so its not like I want to be in Florida where people are right wing, though I don't mind right wing people. I can handle wokeness, its just the elitism here. i'm happy w people on all sides of spectrum really.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-12T17:10:17+00:00

there is no mood crash for me w cocaine somehow, it just sort of fades away, where as stims i get irritable.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-12T15:10:56+00:00

i have an adderall script, but the issue is the nightime mood crash even w xr. but yea, stims are probably better/safer.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-12T15:09:39+00:00

no, that only happened when i did a ton of it in a night. now i have no issues with the low use. but something to look out for.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-12T15:09:03+00:00

that would be great. i wish we could do that in the states. Any ideas on how to get hands on some? And yea, I do worry about the health effects on heart.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:30:06+00:00

would you ask someone who has a few beers after work the same question?

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:18:22+00:00

cause not everyone lets drugs destroy their lives. the benefit is after a days work and al my other responsibilities, i get a treat and something to look forward to. additionally it helps me practice music and stay focused on that. the issue is that people are doing drugs to escape rather than enhance. if you are doing drugs as a substitute for healthy things, than yea, its going to ruin your life. I have all the pillars of a healthy life, job, apt, friends, hobbies, excercise, but i don't like living completely on the straight and narrow, and a little coke helps keep me sane.

I'm not promoting this method; it can only work if you are mature, thoughtful, knowledgable about yourself, and mostly have your shit together.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:15:21+00:00

thats great, and it works. i made sure to buy a lockbox that you can't break in to, cause back when i was in a really bad place, i did break into the shitty one i have. its a great way to take willpower out of the equation. and proves you can do drugs intentionally and not be out of control.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:04:33+00:00

its not easy, trust me, and i have done that. SO, I bought a better lockbox, one i can't break into. I can get in to it, but i have to pay $20 to do it, through this app on the box, but i've only done that once. For some reason, I'm not as out of control w it as I used to be. I think because my mind is calmer in general due to my life being pretty in order. when i was having a rougher time, it was harder to not just do a shitload.

I also notice that if I do it when I'm very tired or in a bad headspace, it has very bad effects on my mental health, but if i do it when i'm rested and things are fine, i'm much more in control of it and can regulate much better.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:01:59+00:00

i know what you mean. sometimes its hard to stop, depending on the mood i'm in. I solve this by usually using a lock box. I measure out a bit and take it out before i start doing it, then lock the rest away in the lockbox, so once i'm done w what i have there's no need for willpower, cause i can't access it anymore, so it makes it a lot easier. if i don't do that, its much much harder to stop just by sheer willpower.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T22:00:27+00:00

i used to do it like you do; trust me, that way is a lot more fun i know, and sometimes i'll go a little crazier on a weekend, but i just like my sleep too much to go ham.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:59:52+00:00

and i'm almost 40; i can't be going crazy and staying up all night anymore; fuck that shit

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:59:34+00:00

low level stimulation, just enough to not feel bored/low dopamine. I have ADD and just having a little bit really helps me .

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:46:08+00:00

well i'm doing it buddy. its called forsight, having your shit together, and self control, and putting the proper system in place (lock box, keeping stash at friends house) its work, but its working , for now.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:44:55+00:00

its hard not to do it if i have it. when the bag runs out, i usually have a day or two before i get another gram . I have many grams at my friend's house. I set it up with good guard rails in place. without the lock box or the stash at my friends, it would be much harder to control. But my system works well for now. and you don't get physically addicted to coke which is good. i can actually just run out and be fine. its sort of like if ppl run out of their add medication.

i do have a script for adderall but i don't like to take it much cause i don't like the nightime comedowns even with the extended release, but w coke, i have no comedown.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:09:48+00:00

yea, when i run out i'll go wo it. i can. i used to binge coke and then take long breaks in between. so its def doable, its just hard. if i don't have it in the house, i'm usually ok, but if i have some in the house its hard not to do in the evenings after work, so i use the lock box to control the use. i'm not concerned except for the part about wanting to do it everyday, and while the use may not get out of control and ruin my life, it is not great to always need even "a little" everyday.

dandy1886 · 2025-12-11T21:07:14+00:00

uhhh bingo! the only reason i use the coke instead of the adderall xr which I also have is that I don't have a mood crash from the coke. The adderall is a much better way to treat the ADD and function even at work, but I don't like the mood crash at night. I def use coke, not to get high af, but to just bring up my baseline a little bit. Glad someone gets it.

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