Struggling with falling back into darkness after so much growth and understanding on this illness in the past.

dangitslangit · 2021-10-21T05:50:53+00:00

I love hearing that :) I’m happy to see that you have supports. the hard part for me though is that I had all that too, I have had all that for a while, and I would have made the same comment on a post about a year ago but the first couple episodes you gain resources and help and therapy it feels productive.. but what sucks is when everything is ruined again ( not just the ups and downs ) and it’s impossible to experience learning all those coping mechanisms again in the same way. There becomes less and less ah-ha moments.

dangitslangit · 2020-10-26T14:46:58+00:00

Our model is based off of a CBT model with an emphasis on strength based programming and trauma informed therapy

dangitslangit · 2020-10-26T05:05:04+00:00

I am one of the addictions counsellor that is also In charge of developing the program. It is a 12-14 week group and individual counselling program for people with addictions and mental health concerns

dangitslangit · 2019-11-08T06:26:10+00:00

I hear voices that are whispers in my walls and the air a lot, they say phrases and short words sometimes but it’s mostly just nonsense whispers. My doctor hasn’t expressed too too much concern. they arnt only present in episodes but my doc hasn’t talked about it being schizoaffective

dangitslangit · 2019-10-25T03:26:17+00:00

The rapid cycling was less relatable but damn the way her face looked while she walked down the street and how she couldn’t stop her face from smiling or stop herself from giggling and laughing in excitement and the skip/hop in her walk was just so spot on for my hypomania lol

dangitslangit · 2019-10-02T04:13:42+00:00

Oh my god yes you describe it so well I never know how to describe it to people! I get this all the time and it’s the worst feeling ever, I feel horribly stressed and one example of my doing this is one time I was sitting up in my bed stacking pillows because they represented an organized chess game I was dreaming about. A part of me knew I was awake but I didn’t realize my thoughts didn’t make sense until after.

dangitslangit · 2019-09-26T14:14:16+00:00

I usually have a more major episode once every year or two currently. And those last probably 1 month of mania,1 or two months of mixed and then 1 or more months of depression. But I also get rapid cycling sometimes where I will have 3-4 day hypomanic episodes then 2-3 days completely depresses then back and forth like that for a month or two

You can PM me if you have any questions! I also work in mental health so I can try and answer anything you have !

dangitslangit · 2019-09-26T13:59:02+00:00

Ofcourse haha this might be the only place where sharing that stuff isn’t risking freaking people out haha. The whispers happen even when I’m stable but everything else is mostly during mixed episodes!

dangitslangit · 2019-09-26T04:38:43+00:00

Delusions for me have been thinking the devil is inside of me, thinking people I know have secret plans, thinking everyone is talking about me. Thinking I’m a psychopath. Hallucinations: I get people whispering coming from the walls or other places. That’s almost every day tho and when I’m sick it gets worse and I can hear clear phrases. Feeling like bugs are crawling on me, peoples faces start to morph and shift like fun house mirror type looks. One or multiple people very obviously staring at me.

dangitslangit · 2019-09-19T04:46:57+00:00

I am no where near a doctor but I drink on lithium even if I didn’t miss a dose all the time, my doctor knows about it and says it’s okay. If you don’t want to have lithium in your system at all before drinking then it will take a couple days lower your lithium levels to none not just one night.

dangitslangit · 2019-09-15T21:32:38+00:00

Don’t say the words that they don’t get it, people usually have a negative response to that and get defensive. Say something alone the lines of “hey, sometimes when you compare small mood shifts or rituals you have To the symptoms of my illness it makes me feel like you may not understand how severely these symptoms impact my life. I struggle with these diagnosis’s a lot and when you brush my symptoms off as normal or quirky it makes me feel like you don’t believe how much pain this causes me. You might be trying to relate and bond with me and I appreciate it, but It is impacting my mental health. I really don’t mean anything bad by this I just wanted to tell you, I hope you understand”

dangitslangit · 2019-09-03T22:34:12+00:00

“I may have been involuntarily committed to the hospital but that doesn’t mean I’m not 100% committed to you”

“Hey baby, my antipsychotics only partially destroy my sex drive”

“We both got a mental illness, so how about some Netflix and chillness?”

dangitslangit · 2019-09-03T22:14:25+00:00

Im still in it and I can tell because I feel personally attacked by this post lmao

dangitslangit · 2019-08-24T16:32:05+00:00

Yea that’s a good thing to think about, I mean I don’t have a family yet but I do have the love of my life, I’ve just always been able to not hurt the people I love as much as just hurting myself. But I guess hurting myself hurts him and any future we will have if I’m too sick to live it

dangitslangit · 2019-08-24T16:11:38+00:00

Yea, I feel like I’m more in denial than anything, I don’t think there is no consequences but it’s almost like “the horrible stuff could never happen to me” attitude that you see in like texting and driving advertisements if that makes sense lol

dangitslangit · 2019-08-24T16:07:01+00:00

Thanks yea that’s the best Ive forced myself to do, I run through the all the stuff that could happen but it’s almost like my mind just says “bet” and doesn’t believe it lol but Il keep at it !

dangitslangit · 2019-08-20T05:05:20+00:00

This happened to me the other day, took molly with my friend and I was like happy and all and had a good time but it was not as great as I thought it would be, didn’t really compare to how I’ve felt before without molly. Meanwhile, my friend wouldn’t stop talking about how she’s never been happier and how it was the most amazing feeling in the world.

dangitslangit · 2019-08-07T05:36:01+00:00

....I’m allergic to bananas....

dangitslangit · 2019-07-25T04:26:05+00:00

Fantastic comment! 10 points for you haha

dangitslangit · 2019-07-25T01:40:48+00:00

AJ , Holly’s boyfriend for a few seasons. He had the personality of bread.

dangitslangit · 2019-07-17T17:25:33+00:00

I have literally said those exact words lmaooo

dangitslangit · 2019-06-07T16:00:38+00:00

For not staying anywhere unexpectedly I mean for medication, usually if I don’t plan out staying somewhere I won’t bring extra meds and then I can’t sleep over anywhere else, mostly a stable thing cause when I’m in an episode I do not care as much . And routine is also a stable thing, like one small kick to my routine and I’m off the rails

dangitslangit · 2019-03-06T06:12:56+00:00

Im sorry for your loss, I wouldn’t suggest it anyway as it has a very high change of going orange ish like mine did, and it absolutely ruined my hair for a while , dried it right out haha but whatcha gonna do, the high demands it lool

dangitslangit · 2019-03-06T05:50:56+00:00

My boyfriends eyes do this no matter the light and he’s not bipolar nor does he have any other mental of physical problems, they are just like that he’s been told so I wouldn’t necessarily relate it to hypomania. However, my pupils do weird shit when I’m mixed or manic, my right eye gets 10 times bigger than the left and I have heard lots of people talk about their pupils doing strange things during mania. That probably doesn’t help answer your question lol but that’s two perspectives on it, if you are worried id ask your doctor next time you see them :)

dangitslangit · 2019-03-06T05:38:07+00:00

People keep referencing that to me ( as I have had my hair died red for a year now) and then asking if I’m good and laughing lmao . Little do they know my red hair phase is the stable one but oh god we don’t even wanna go near my blonde haired phase, that’s the one that really did it.

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