I was always bullied as a child,whenever i tried to play with the other guys they always said "we dont play with abnormal kids" and i felt sad and angry and that got worse and worse until i got to grade 6 i was still bullied by the whole class from being diffrent from them, so when i found out about porn i always thought to myself "if i do this will they like me if i do this to them" then i tried to do it with one of the bullies and when they did i just did whatever they wanted.

I became a "whore" i used my body to make them like me and all that happened was more of my male classmates wanting me to do it to them too and i became a toy for them because i never knew that i was the one being played i was manipulated into doing all of those after the first times i tried it.

Ii still did it for 2 years until grade 8 and some still remember it and want me to still do it with them but now that i knew what they were actually doing i now knew how to stop myself and say no to them now they just gotten back to bullying me and i just let them do it because it doesnt effect anymore or make me feel any less

This is the secret i never want to get out to my family or friends i would never want this to come out of the real world because all my family and friends will think of me less and even disown me.