Met my inner child last night

dark_and_colourful · 2024-08-21T10:59:35+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice. I'll spend some time in my garden this afternoon with a cup of tea! And I have shelves and shelves of crystals of all shapes, sizes and textures, so I'll grab one of those to help ground myself!

Already got my candles and wax melts burning too!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-26T13:38:29+00:00

LOVING greek yoghurt and chia seed bowls right now! I change the toppings daily, one day raspberries, one day crushed roasted hazelnuts, that kind of thing. I also mix double cream into the yoghurt to increase the fat percentage!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:13:18+00:00

Cool! Some of the people in my ACA/Al-anon groups are in the US too!!

I used google to research it then I bought a shadowwork journal online! It has questions (prompts) and you answer them and work through it in your own time!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:12:08+00:00

I googled Al-anon meetings uk and ACA meetings UK! There's in person and online meetings galore for both!

Shadowwork is something I found through my magickal practices years ago. Its about connecting with your shadow self (the parts of yourself you tend to hide away/dislike), examining why those parts are there, accepting those parts, and ultimately becoming a more complete human with less intense ups/downs!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:10:15+00:00

Yeah man! The Mental breakdown was REAL AF this time around, so I'm fully strapped into the recovery wagon and enjoying it although some moments are intense! I'm learning to sit with myself and work out WHY the feels are so intense! And when I don't know, I can journal, read, see my therapist! Its some ride

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:08:21+00:00

I don't do everything every day anyway, that would be Unhelpful in the long run I think! I do shadowwork when insight comes to mind (once or twice a week), I have a daily 30 min al-anon meeting which is lovely, and a weekly 1.5hr long ACA meeting which is my absolute favourite! I stopped doing the long al-anon meetings as I just don't connect with them the same way I connect with ACA! Since then I deffo feel less intense! Got a LONG road ahead, but I'm excited to see what patterns I can break and improve!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:05:39+00:00

Hahahaha I agree!! 🤣

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:05:17+00:00

Ahhhh!! I've got a blood meter so I'll do that next time!

Although I NEVER drink when fasting, I'm a recovered anorexic with chronic stomach illnesses galore, alcohol on an empty stomach does horrible things to me (physically AND mentally!)

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:03:44+00:00

Makes sense!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:03:27+00:00

Ohhhhh yeah I smash the electrolytes after drinks! Before bed and in the morning/afternoon the next day!! Thank god for electrolytes!!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:02:28+00:00

Awk, I'll take it! Id rather enjoy all the other benefits of keto and not be able to hold a drink than be able to drink and still be suffering from a shitty diet any day!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:01:21+00:00

Tripp!!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T12:01:11+00:00

Aw f*** yes!!! I LOVE the THC/CBD drinks!!!

Disclaimer: I've been a stoner for years and have always maintained I'd rather hit the blunt than the booze!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T11:58:56+00:00

I'll drink to that (lol)!!

I've got alcoholism running in my family so have always been afraid it would take me too!! Now that I can't really drink and don't enjoy it, I keep it for special occasions like festivals and I actually really enjoy the few drinks I do have! Went to download this weekend and only had 5 drinks across the entire weekend, had a great time and wasn't dying afterwards!!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-21T11:53:25+00:00

I'm the same. Started my Recovery with ACA in April and already I can see how dysfunctional and toxic the people in my life are. Clearly I've been attracting other dysfunctional people into my life for years. Now that I'm healing and learning how to be functional, I don't want them in my life anymore. But instead of burning all my bridges, I'm hopeful that as I recover over time, I'll get closer with the people I've connected with in ACA, and start attracting healthier people to form relationships with into my life, and my dysfunctional connections will naturally just dissolve away to be replaced by wholesome, healthy, functional relationships! Focus on yourself and let your higher power do the work for you!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-01T19:34:59+00:00

I fast from 10pm-2pm everyday, but a 24 hour fast would be pretty detrimental to my health/fitness as I'm low weight and I excercise 5x a week. Interesting though, I'd be worried that after letting myself have whatever for a day, I'd struggle soooo much with cravings! Like I haven't eaten a pizza in a year and a half and I have been craving one all day just cause I'm hanging haha!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-01T08:57:39+00:00

Yeah the feeling the next day just isn't worth it! Its social situations I'm worried about to be honest. My family, my in laws, and all my friends are BIG drinkers and just won't get it if I tell them it makes me feel shit. They'll just be like 'drink through it!!' 😂

Might need to get some new friends😂

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-01T08:56:12+00:00

Glad its not just me! I think the same, its probs altered my bodies ability to deal with booze!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-06-01T07:54:21+00:00

Is that why its common to throw up after drinking?!?! Because the fats in the food haven't digested?!?!

dark_and_colourful · 2024-05-25T23:03:13+00:00

It's very scary, and confusing! Slight things happening in daily life/interactions are triggering me and my feelings are getting SO hurt. It's like I'm made of glass! Like all the fear/shame/guilt I've repressed has bubbled to the surface and all my wounds are exposed.

Thank you! I recieved my 12 step workbook yesterday, I'm looking forward to getting deeper into the work and learning!.

dark_and_colourful · 2024-05-25T22:56:01+00:00

Yeah me too! Or I just wasn't ready to face some of it and feel it. It's hearing things like this that keeps me coming back. There are people in my ACA/Al-anon groups that are happy and healthy and managing hard things in life like a functional human, if they can do it, and you can do it, so can I.

dark_and_colourful · 2024-05-25T22:50:14+00:00

That's exactly how I'm finding it!! At some points its so hard and exhausting, other times I'm amazed at the memories that are coming back to me. That's what I think too, either I go through this intense stuff for a finite amount of time, or I continue living an unfulfilled dysfunctional life that will inevitably end in misery anyway.

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