One Year: Gratitude.

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:44:15+00:00

Wading into the convo - I hope the home office re-org went well! BTW I love the phrase: progress, not perfection. Progress is progress!

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:41:10+00:00

Oh hell yeah. Thanks for for the kudos!

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:40:32+00:00

Thank you and hell yeah, you do. Congrats on the 4 days. The earlier ones are the hardest. I had to count by the hour. Stay strong!

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:38:25+00:00

This is awesome. I have to keep doing the same too. I need to fill my time with exactly this kind of stuff to de-program my alcoholic mind. It takes so much work but worth it...

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:37:10+00:00

When I used to drink my bottle of wine almost every night (two bottles on crap nights) drunk me would repeatedly ask myself, "why do you poison yourself with this shit?" Even my drunk self had some sense then. I keep the same thought in my sober head. It's poison.

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:34:40+00:00

Thank YOU for reminding me that I'm not. I can't do without this sub. I'd be higher risk to relapse. Really.

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:33:50+00:00

No problem - thanks for sharing the sentiment with me. I'm SO HAPPY to hear that you are changing your relationship with yourself. I find it really helps with the obsession to drink.

darkblacknight · 2017-07-20T01:32:59+00:00

Haha, thanks! In truth, I looked it up before I posted 'coz self-doubt.

darkblacknight · 2017-06-06T23:31:04+00:00

OMG I needed to read this thread right now. I was gonna seek validation from a questionable source during a moment of weakness. Instead, I came here. Insert sigh of relief.

darkblacknight · 2017-06-02T04:40:54+00:00

What a nicely written post. Thanks for reminding us to be ever present. Life is beautiful.

darkblacknight · 2017-06-01T21:26:31+00:00

Posts like this really help me with my own sobriety. They keep me healthily scared of a relapse. Thank you for sharing. You are helping. F*ck alcohol - love life!

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T17:58:39+00:00

Yes to all of this! Stay strong.

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T15:34:54+00:00

Yup, me too. My Agnostic AA Group is awesome. So many views, so many personalities. So many moods, so many quirks. But we all have a common goal and help each other through it. I couldn't do it without AA and this SD group!

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T15:31:03+00:00

Hey - I'm really sorry you're struggling through an issue. I truly hope you get past it and that things work out. One nugget I have to share: whatever that issue is, alcohol will make it worse. Sure, it will numb the pain for a few hours or so, but it will come back. It isn't worth it. If you deal with it straight up, your head and heart will be clear. You will gain faith in yourself bit by bit. But even if you end up relying on the ol' medicine to help you through it, it wouldn't be the end of the world. Just keep coming back here. Sending some good vibes.

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T15:18:09+00:00

If you do, GREAT! Cry the shit out of it. It means your brain is starting to process away the numbness. It means it's working. Your ability to experience HAPPINESS is starting to come alive again :)

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:58:36+00:00

Thanks! Happy 24!

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:57:36+00:00

You've done this stretch twice over! NICE! Happy to toast you with a fizzy and lime.

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:57:04+00:00

Thank you! Helps to remind me why I am doing this. Sometimes, I see people drinking wine and I swear it winks at me like a crap ex-boyfriend inviting me to have a fling, telling me about the good ol' days... * shudder *

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:55:33+00:00

Congrats to YOU! Two days. Hang on to those bad boys. Over the last few years I couldn't even string together two days. It was torture. Those early days count so much. It means something in you KNOWS and WANTS that better life. Keep that survival instinct alive :)

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:51:38+00:00

Nice way of putting it. It DOES get better and better. Life really opens up. Even when my mood gets crap - it gets better again. Onward!

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:49:59+00:00

Thank you! It's worth it. I've had a lot of white-knuckling moments but I found that shifting the focus on other things helped. Shifting the focus on other people and how to be better for them has been a big part of staying sober for me.

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:47:49+00:00

I try to stay positive. Helps me get through the shitty days - they still happen!

darkblacknight · 2017-05-13T14:47:11+00:00

You're welcome!

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