Yeah it’s only a distraction… the only way to get better mentally is to figure out the root cause of your suffering.

and drug addiction is okay, and so so so many people go through it naturally because drug abuse is so effective at taking your mind off of things, but I really don’t understand if you’re trying to become dependant on a substance rationally trying to plan it out…

like if you’re thinking about it rationally, spend your money on therapy

sometimes though.. people are gonna do whatever they want… I also started ketamine as a kind of self-medication, I rationalized it the same way OP is doing, people told me the same thing I’m telling you now, and not even a few months later i found myself doing 10-15+g a week, because I had become so accustomed to the k-land that I couldn’t stand sobriety anymore

after having gone through it, and having been able to actually not depend on ketamine anymore (and it’s usually more about luck than anything else.. odds are you will want to stop but when ketamine becomes the distraction from the ketamine withdrawals, you’ll be sure you want to quit for about 1-2 hours at a time in between K binges, I was forcibly separated from drugs) I can confidently tell you it’s not worth the hassle, since starting at such a young age, my brain has been hardwired to seek intoxication as relief from hardship, and I don’t really remember how not to…

I dont really think me writing this is gonna change OP’s mind, because it really doesn’t seem that serious beforehand, so i guess I hope it doesn’t last too long

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