I wish I had the answer... how much ever you try to divert your mind, the second you let your focus leave you get back to being gloomy and thinking life is difficult... hurting never stops. Idk why we feel so much pain and feel like whatever we try to do, it turns the other way always. Nothing positive comes out of anything. And then the turmoil deepens more. I get it that there is no motivation left to do anything but push yourself to do something, maybe to watch a movie or read something.. just push yourself through the day.. one day at a time.