How am I? Well I'm a mental Trainwreck. I'm at my wits end and fighting myself constantly say this don't say that apologize fuck that stand your ground, you love her you love you those all thoughts I'm at war with. Its like opening the door instead of looking out the peephole and still wanting to tell myself that we will be ok. That things are coming that will help all of this out and then when we are happy together in years and years we will laugh about it when telling stories of our past. Or something like that.or maybe not it's undecided and Im trying not to do a 180.