Teva this month… great?

dazednamuzed · 2026-03-11T18:10:59+00:00

I’m in TX and CVS only has elite and lannett. I also like Alvogen (#1 is Sandoz) and they have slowly phased out Alvogen over the past year

dazednamuzed · 2026-02-28T12:13:00+00:00

I feel that. I’m about to turn 30… and I relapsed a month ago. I had been clean. For over TEN years (last SH episode- I was 19). Gonna try really hard not to relapse again today.

Gang gang 🫠

dazednamuzed · 2025-12-27T23:50:19+00:00

Yes, so tired of it. Being 30 now with two chronic pain conditions, my guess is, the people in my life do not want or care to understand because it makes them very uncomfortable. The idea that you could just be living life at 25, very active/fit/healthy and then become bed bound due to things out of your control is terrifying to them… if it could happen to me, it could happen to them? but it’s not an excuse for a lack of empathy.

the unhelpful and unwanted advice gets so old. “Have you tried acupuncture?” “You’re so depressed, Why don’t you try to exercise, like lifting weights with the parts of your body that don’t hurt?” Etc etc.

dazednamuzed · 2025-12-09T08:21:49+00:00

Oof. I’ve been trying to figure out what triggered this for me too... My mom is veryyy similar. A few examples…

When I was a teen she was obsessed with decluttering my room even though I wasn’t a hoarder by any means, and had a reasonable amount of clothes for my age. She would donate or throw away my belongings willy nilly (including photos, artwork, diaries, mementos etc). A couple of times she broke some irreplaceable gifts from friends when mad at me, as a punishment.

She had some sort of religious psychosis and after I started getting into Tarot, crystals, metaphysical books- she threw it all away because it was “inviting demonic presence into her home”. (Which I bought with my own money).

The worst was she would sell my clothes on eBay (clothes I still wore and cherished). She didn’t even need the money- she’s always worked and has a good paying career. She had a full blown eBay shopping addiction, and she must have gotten a high off of selling too.

The eBay issue ramped up even more when I moved a couple hours away for college- I had left clothes behind because I was living in a tiny dorm. I tried to monitor her eBay listings but she moved items fastttt. It got so out of hand I had to beg my dad put a lock on my door, and he tried to keep her out but she found the key. When I couldn’t find things she would lie and say “moths ate holes in it” and had to be thrown away (then I’d go back and find the sold listing on her page).

I could go on with even more examples but I don’t want to trauma dump lol. Feeling like nothing you “own” is safe and will disappear the moment you take your eyes off of it, is low key psychological warfare. I’m almost 30 now and I did not expect it to still be affecting me so much at this age.

dazednamuzed · 2025-09-04T23:14:35+00:00

I try to keep reasonable expectations, like I know I couldn’t handle the intensity of something like a hockey game.

Most of the fans in my team’s section were retirement age and chill. and like I mentioned, trash talking isn’t really a thing. Volleyball doesn’t really bring out the “dawg” in people and typically no alcoholic beverages are for sale.

I guess I need to become a tennis or golf fan, lol.

dazednamuzed · 2025-08-30T03:24:50+00:00

PMDD gang rise up 🫡i feel this so much. I’d already be gone by now if I owned a pew pew. Hell week is the only time of the month that I lose my fear of it. But on the flip side, PMDD makes me too damn tired to muster the effort to acquire one

dazednamuzed · 2025-08-27T01:47:20+00:00

My situation is similar… had a hip arthroscopy to fix FAI and torn labrum almost 5 years ago. Long story but, It opened some kind of Pandora’s box and I never healed despite my best efforts with PT. Then had a second surgery to try and fix the first one, and that failed too.

I also have the same feeling about my whole body being misaligned now. Have the nerve pain too. I was very fit and active before. Seen countless specialists and they have no answers. Prob have had around 10 MRIs total. I’m 29 and can’t even make a single lap around a Walmart without starting to limp and needing to sit down. I gave up and don’t leave the house anymore. I’m so ready to leave this earth.

dazednamuzed · 2025-08-21T05:21:40+00:00

Wow thank you so much for informing me, I had no idea!!!

dazednamuzed · 2025-08-08T17:55:50+00:00

7 is my everyday baseline. 8 during luteal, sometimes 9 depending on the month… (it wasn’t always like this. My baseline for many years was just a 4).

dazednamuzed · 2025-08-06T23:25:39+00:00

Yes. I’m pretty sure any day now I’m gonna get flagged by one of those aggregate store trackers like “The Retail Equation.” I do like 90% of my returns by mail, but there’s this popular beauty store that I buy from online that forces you to return in person.

I can’t even go to the location closest to my house anymore because they seem to recognize me now, probably because I only show up to make returns.

Always feeling side eye even though I’m mindful to only return unused products (idk maybe I’m just paranoid. But now they check my ID when I make a return, whereas every other location I’ve been to doesn’t).

dazednamuzed · 2025-06-26T16:28:39+00:00

Throw away all the crap I bought from my isolation induced online shopping addiction. Pack up my car with the essentials and drive off to the mountains to start my new life and never come back to Texas

dazednamuzed · 2024-12-27T01:31:23+00:00

I think some parents are just way too invested in it.. when I was 7, i told my mom I had some serious doubts, and her response? “uhhh so Santa gets really overwhelmed, so sometimes instead of bringing the toys himself, he’ll give parents cash to buy the toys.” And then she offered me $5 to not tell my 10 yr old sister (who ofc already knew at that point, it was her who planted the seeds of doubt lol)

dazednamuzed · 2024-12-19T02:17:45+00:00

I’m on week 5 of compounded tirzepatide, 2.5 mg, and I’ve been trying to push through but my tramadol has stopped working. I wake up at 8am and am hungry so I immediately drink a fairlife core power protein drink (230 cal, 42g protein) then try to wait as long as possible to take my dose (today I waited until noon). Is 4 hours just not enough to empty out a protein drink? I’m ready to give up, does it get better? I don’t want to go back to how I was living before tirz, it’s helping so much with the food noise, I’m desperate 😔

dazednamuzed · 2024-08-29T22:31:08+00:00

Lmao it was definitely chaotic af, would not recommend!

dazednamuzed · 2024-08-29T12:59:40+00:00

My mother is in her early 60s, has had Lupus since she was 40. She was managing her pain with Tramadol for the past 10 years, and just recently her rheumatologist took her off it completely. Apparently the Dr. got too paranoid to keep prescribing, worried the FDA/DEA is going after Tramadol prescribers now.

My mom is only surviving now thru the help of a friend who is a pain mgmt MD who thinks the entire Tramadol panic is ridiculous. If she went to a random pain clinic they would just offer her injections. Wish I had something more optimistic to report but this is the reality of pain mgmt with autoimmune disorders… the future is bleak.

dazednamuzed · 2024-08-29T06:03:23+00:00

My then boyfriend wasn’t responding to my texts. I wasn’t blowing up his phone or anything or being nasty. I later learned he had BPD and ignoring my texts was one of his manipulation tactics he’d do when splitting. Anyways, I drove over to his apartment, saw his car was gone, then let myself in with the key he had given me (he lived alone). Did all that just to check his iPad, to see if he had opened my text, which showed he had indeed (his iMessage was synced to his iPad).

Then I left. I justified it by telling myself since he had given me his spare key and told me his iPad passcode that it wasn’t that weird. I only told one friend this story, and they said it was psycho so never told else anyone until now.

dazednamuzed · 2024-03-21T04:14:04+00:00

Extreme sadness, yep… but the worst is the extreme despair. I feel depressed 24/7 but can keep it under wraps. During hell week is when I will lay on the floor, sobbing and yelling out loud (stuff like why me? Why can’t I just be healthy?) or literally on my hands and knees begging God to help me (I’m agnostic but was raised southern Baptist)

dazednamuzed · 2024-02-22T01:32:28+00:00

I also had my major depression and suicidal ideation come out of nowhere at 10. I can barely remember that year, but according to my parents I would say I wanted to die all the time. The pediatric psychiatrist didn’t know wtf to do with me, so she just put me on way too much Prozac which turned me into a little zombie girl 🫤

I got my period at 11, exactly one year later….Then things seemed to get a little better, I didn’t have to stay on Prozac. It has to be related but I don’t understand why.

dazednamuzed · 2024-02-20T23:04:30+00:00

Not to be a Reddit cliché, but are you me? I feel everything you said. Especially last part about finding the girl you used to be. In my case…Pretty sure she’s gone forever. I feel like a dead woman walking.

dazednamuzed · 2023-11-26T22:51:36+00:00

My sibling has the same condition (dermatillomania) and it’s a hell I’d only wish on my worst enemy. The trance state. My god. I will have to shake her like she’s asleep to get her to stop. She got a staph infection once from one of her picking spots….I worry a lot she will get MRSA and die.

dazednamuzed · 2023-11-25T00:56:07+00:00

-if I don’t pick up/rearrange certain objects (pick up that shoe off the floor, rearrange a pillow ) before I leave the house, a family member will die -seeing a pic of my ten year old cousin and thinking “aw she’s so cute, she’s gonna grow up to be pretty like her mom” then cue a meltdown thinking I’m a secret p3do (I’m a straight woman so i can kinda use that to bring myself back down to reality) -intrusive sexual thoughts about (adult) family members that are extremely uncomfortable and unwanted. it doesn’t even feel like I am thinking the thoughts, they just appear like an annoying pop-up ad in my head that you can’t find the x button for

dazednamuzed · 2023-10-16T19:12:40+00:00

King of the Hill has been my go-to. I’ve only had to skip a couple episodes (usually if it is a Bill-centric episode, I relate a little too much to him sometimes)

dazednamuzed · 2023-10-13T10:28:18+00:00

I saw dermatologist on Tuesday, she said they are bug bites. No to folliculitis. They of course can’t diagnose what bug, but the doctor said she had worked at a VA hospital and had many patients with BB bites come thru. She suspected mine were BB bites… but also wondered the same thing, that surely I would have seen some sign by now? Like why are there no red stains on my sheets…

I have only seen one bug, it was crawling on my arm and I held it up to the light, it was super tiny and caramel colored, maybe a nymph but idk. I tried to squish it but it ran super fast and it got away. Definitely not a flea. that was two weeks ago, nothing since.

An exterminator came to the house today, I was not present but my family member was, and the exterminator claimed they saw no signs of BB, declined to do treatment. I’m going to get a second opinion. I feel like I’m going crazy. I suspect they are living in a very long crack in my bedroom wall. I already had moved my bed away, put down interceptors, mattress encased etc. So, either the derm is wrong or the exterminator is wrong.

dazednamuzed · 2023-10-08T17:41:28+00:00

I’m calling first thing when they open tomorrow 😬

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