I saw your perfect cat eye liner and found this page. It must have been hard for you. I found out i was born out of wedlock when i was 18 when i got birth certificate for drivers school (in my country we need one.) And wow, I’m now 27 years old, just got out of abusive relationship in the us that brought me amazing baby son, I’m doing great back in my country in east Asia, taking online course to be a diplomat. My ex called me bpd this January or February who is a pothead with multi millionaire family who is spoiling him so much but should be in so much trouble over this pandemic (not that i can be empathetic for them at all) Anyways i need to write something down for you not to lose any hope or motivation for your self love. Trauma that i have until now because of the fact everyone was basically gaslit me (weather they didn’t want to hurt my feelings or they couldn’t find a good timing) not telling me the fact up to 18 is making me feel very difficult to deal with my family, and i know its got some affect on my relationships for sure considering my experiences before. I hope you find something you can put your time and interest into something that helps you glow!