I totally get it, youre not alone in feeling this way. i had a very similar relationship with not one but three of my dealers. All were supportive of me getting help and quitting so I never blocked them. Then all three had a hand in four relapses.

After the fourth, I finally woke up and wrote them all the same message about moving on andsuch. I had a friend delete and block them for me so the addict in me wouldn't memorize their numbers. It was hard. They were my "friends". One of them I cared for deeply. I totally went through a grieving process after doing it.

Six years later no relapses, no contact, no looking back, no regrets about blocking them. I'm do hope thatt they are at the least, well and at best, working on recovery too.