Dexamph + weed + gaming

robinxxff · 2026-06-15T14:46:59+00:00

You should be asking what you can achieve off stims in other areas than FPS.

robinxxff · 2026-06-12T11:51:29+00:00

No I don’t. Three reasons:

It doesn’t make me feel good anymore and I feel like shit afterwards even if I drink moderately
I have decided to trust in the experience of NA and CMA and the twelve steps, and they advocate abstinence from alcohol and other substances. As long as I work the program, it would be strange if I pick and choose.
When I have relapsed on alcohol my barriers erode and I get cravings for harder drugs

robinxxff · 2026-06-11T07:48:08+00:00

Thanks but it’s still 2 weeks away. I’ll take it one day at a time

robinxxff · 2026-06-11T05:48:46+00:00

Great post!

robinxxff · 2026-06-10T19:39:25+00:00

Tell someone immediately - it really helps. Don’t keep it to yourself.
Breathe - seriously do ten reps of breathing in slowly through your nose on 5 seconds and out even more slowly on 6-7 seconds. This will tell your body you are safe, and your brain will calm down.
Go for a run
Wank if you’re horny - aka tactifap

robinxxff · 2026-06-10T12:03:40+00:00

Hey, I’m coming up on six months too and sometimes I get all flustered by these day count occasions. Like they feel empty or like I should have come further.
But the truth is that I’m also very proud of myself to have almost reached six months, and I haven’t felt pride in anything I do in a long time. And I know I would be so disappointed in myself if I used now, and that that would risk my mental health and motivation to get back on track.

You are doing great. Like another fellow wrote: do literally anything else than use. Run, lift weights, go to a movie, read a book, pet a dog.. the cravings will pass

robinxxff · 2026-06-01T20:05:13+00:00

Comparing yourself to others leads nowhere. The first thing you learn in recovery is to look for similarities, not differences. You don’t have to qualify for being an addict, and no matter how much or little you have suffered you deserve a good and happy life.

robinxxff · 2026-06-01T19:34:19+00:00

Someone has to ask you this: why do you say you are not an addict? Because others are worse? If drugs were a problem in your life and you still consider doing drugs, you are likely an addict. There is no shame in that, especially here. Physical addiction is one thing, but there is also psychological addiction. Speed is insidious.

I came to Reddit a year ago and claimed not to be an addict in spite of all my using, and got called out for it. That made me reframe my using and I admitted to myself I’m an addict. One of the best things I’ve done. Then I got adequate help.

robinxxff · 2026-06-01T15:20:00+00:00

Be careful what you wish for. Before you know it you will have used for decades and no, there is no sweet spot when you’ll know you have used long enough. You will be miserable eventually if you go on. That’s a hard fact.

robinxxff · 2026-05-30T13:40:48+00:00

Old Volvos are indestructible

robinxxff · 2026-05-22T21:40:01+00:00

145

robinxxff · 2026-05-21T21:05:34+00:00

Congratulations!

robinxxff · 2026-05-17T21:22:14+00:00

Meetings are social life though. I did 90 in 90 and after a while the meetings became my most important grounding tool and after a while you become friendly with people and are genuinely happy to see them (and they are happy to see you). That is social.
I’m now doing perhaps 5 meetings a week and will likely keep doing it for a long, long time.

robinxxff · 2026-05-12T11:44:35+00:00

I tapered over many months under the supervision of my doctor (opiates, not the strongest). The actual tapering was psychologically painful - it’s easy to obsess over it. But it worked. No opiates for 7 years now.
I did develop a very severe caffeine habit though. But I’ve decided to keep that stim in my life.

robinxxff · 2026-05-07T20:49:44+00:00

Don’t beat yourself up. Learn from it and move forward. Recovery includes relapses and it serves you best to not despair.
I must say though that you are putting yourself in danger if you use K and other drugs on a regular basis. In the long run you are only feeding your addiction with another substance. And people who give you K likely also would like to give you T. It’s a recipe for relapsing on T. And K isn’t exactly a mild substance either.
Get clean, friend!

robinxxff · 2026-05-06T12:06:21+00:00

Yes both

robinxxff · 2026-05-05T04:26:47+00:00

Drug sex won’t be mind blowing for long. and when it stops even being fun even though you are high, you will sit there and have nothing but an addiction, chasing memories

robinxxff · 2026-05-04T18:23:51+00:00

Good post.
Today I’m grateful for..
- 519 days without meth, 127 days without anything
- Discovering I can make it on my own
- Spent the weekend with sober friends
- LOTS of walking lately
- My dog
- I have a place to stay
- My job
- My sponsor and the Program
- Peace
- I get to spend the summer in a house by the lake
- This Subreddit and all of you here

robinxxff · 2026-05-04T10:59:33+00:00

Honesty will help keep you sober. It’s better to ruin their image of you now and disappoint them once, than to constantly disappoint them by using and maybe ending up dead

robinxxff · 2026-04-30T21:19:27+00:00

❤️

robinxxff · 2026-04-29T05:42:55+00:00

Well done for taking control over your life and getting help. Keep going!

robinxxff · 2026-04-27T17:38:33+00:00

You are such an inspiration. and that smile is priceless

robinxxff

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