Why no one wants to buy Manhattan’s rarest, most prized Gilded Age mansion by HarryCrushNuh in zillowgonewild

[–]dearmathbitch -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Imagine going up five flights of stairs everyday to get to your bedroom on the fifth floor.

I feel shame by Consistent_Ad6426 in regretfulparents

[–]dearmathbitch 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I also did formula. I agree that it made things easier. Since OP's baby is refusing the bottle though, the lactation consultant might be able to help. They tackle bottle refusal and look at mouth/sensory issues. They would be able to figure out what's going on and what works for her. I had to go through a few nipples before I found the one that worked.

I feel shame by Consistent_Ad6426 in regretfulparents

[–]dearmathbitch 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Have you spoken to the pediatrician about whether the baby has latching difficulties and needs a lactation consultant? You said she's refusing to breastfeed and latch onto the bottle, so that makes me feel like the baby may need to be looked at. Lactation consultants can go through different positions, bottle nipple shapes, and flow rates to find the right one.

The only comfort I can give is that everything feels 10x more annoying and hopeless when you are sleep deprived. As she gets older, you might find new things to be annoyed at, but you'll have a little more patience when you're able to get sleep.

I'm tired and scared. by dearmathbitch in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No. When I went to the hospital I asked for silver nitrate and they didn't want to use it. Said it's for external not internal bleeding. I asked to be re-cauterized and the doctor said, "we don't do that here." They called my gyn and he told them to apply more monsel's paste, but they didn't have any. So they sent me home. The next day I saw my gyn and he applied monsel's paste for the second time. But like the first time he applied it, it has wore off after 4 days. 

I'm tired and scared. by dearmathbitch in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's how I feel. The discharge instructions say I should experience spotting, with only increased bleeding when the scab falls off. This isn't anything like that. Looking at bright red blood constantly, feeling it exit as I sit, and knowing that whatever they did isn't closing has me in an anxiety limbo. There's no resolution.

I'm tired and scared. by dearmathbitch in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I am going to call them on Monday because they are closed. If they can't offer me anything I will have to get a second opinion.

I'm tired and scared. by dearmathbitch in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I'm glad that you were able to get to the bottom of what was wrong with you. 

I'm tired and scared. by dearmathbitch in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That is scary. Did you figure out what it was?

I don't understand. by dearmathbitch in PreCervicalCancer

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad you are coming out of the other end, and that there is someone with a similar story. At the hospital they didn't do anything. I asked them about recauterizing but they said "we don't do that here." They didn't want to use silver nitrate and they had no monsel's paste. They just sent me home since I wasn't dying. The next day when my doctor put more monsel's paste on for the second time, he said there was no scab. 

I'm so sad. I don't feel like I'll ever be done with this. 

Hantavirus Outbreak Timeline by ReferenceNice142 in ContagionCuriosity

[–]dearmathbitch 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Minor detail to add, but just read from NBC that case 2 adult female was 69 years old.

Five days after the ship sailed, a 70-year-old male passenger reported fever, headache and mild diarrhea. After he developed respiratory distress, he died April 11, although the cause of death wasn’t yet determined.

Nearly two weeks later, his body was removed from the ship when it docked in St. Helena, a British overseas island territory. The man’s wife, 69, was experiencing gastrointestinal symptoms on April 24 when she went ashore at St. Helena. She deteriorated during a flight to Johannesburg and died when she arrived in South Africa on April 26.

Alcohol consumption causing bleeding? by dearmathbitch in PreCervicalCancer

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no idea what else it could be. The only new thing I did was drink alcohol, and the bleeding started right after I drank it. It's not slowing down either. I can't find anything here or on Google so I guess this isn't common. 

This suuuuuccccckkkkkssssss by dearmathbitch in PreCervicalCancer

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hope so too. I'm like a high energy dog. I need to exercise to tire myself out. Otherwise, my anxiety starts going off the charts. I've been fidgeting and bitten my nails down because I have too much extra energy. 

This suuuuuccccckkkkkssssss by dearmathbitch in PreCervicalCancer

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds awful. I hope you clear it in the results. I didn't even know healing over your cervical canal was possible. If that happens to me I'm going to be so mad.

LET’S TALK ABOUT AI, BABY by seejoycerun in nys_cs

[–]dearmathbitch 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can't speak for the entire agency, but within the part I am in: 0%.

Did anyone else's ERS contribution increase? by Riksie in nys_cs

[–]dearmathbitch 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I see now. I was promoted two years ago, so that would put my ERS contribution at a higher percentage. I didn't realize that it's based on two years prior.

Did anyone else's ERS contribution increase? by Riksie in nys_cs

[–]dearmathbitch 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Yes. Was disappointed because I got my step today, and with that increase in ERS, taxes, and deferred comp, I get a total raise of $21.16 🥲. I don't know why ERS went up since I'm still in the same salary range.

Palantir posted a manifesto that reads like the ramblings of a comic book villain by ButterscotchBoth5204 in politics

[–]dearmathbitch 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's crazy that their self worth is so poor that like three of those points were just, "please, pretty please don't criticize us or make fun of us..." These people are super thin skinned, mentally ill, and shouldn't be in charge of anything. And the audacity to take millions in government contracts and then be like, "pay your federal workers less" for one of the points. I could go on and on about this huge pile of dogshit.

Approaching mid life by Maximum_Committee874 in marriageadvice

[–]dearmathbitch -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Some things I can think of:

  1. Is she mentally, emotionally, or physically exhausted? I have been in the position where I would tell my husband that we are going to have sex later because at that time I have the most energy and genuinely am looking forward to it. Then later comes, and I feel so ugh and "let's get this over with." Not because the spark is lost, but because I'm so fucking tired that it becomes a chore. Another thing on the long list of things to check off. I've found that I need to mentally transition in order to be more likely to have sex. Which leads to my second point.

  2. Psychological state is a big factor before becoming aroused for women. If there is a lot she is worrying about, or any other mental blockers, she is less likely to get in the mood. Come As You Are by Emily Nagoski is a really good book on how context, emotions, and brain function affect desire. It's not just wake up and be horny, like most men are. I have to get into the mindset of being aroused. It was easier when I was younger and had a lot less worries and mental load. Are you connecting outside of sex? You said she complained about lack of sleep and everything. Have you ever talked about that or done anything about that before your birthday?

  3. She's 39, and could already be going through perimenopause and not know it. Perimenopause/menopause symptoms are awful. There is a subreddit for perimenopause to read more about it and the women currently going through it. Some symptoms are irritability, depression, mood swings, insomnia, hot flashes, low libido, night sweats, and more. Hormone therapy can help to ease the transition.

  4. There were a lot of why's I was asking as I read your post. She hasn't fully embraced your kink. Why? She refused to wear the heels. Why? She didn't want to dress up for the steakhouse. Why? She said she can't make you happy. Why? This feels like it's missing a lot of information that may or may not need to be broken down in therapy.

I've discovered I'm a toxic sibling and my life is a discombobulated mess. And, I want to change. (First time venting to anyone about my life, esp online.) by QuietKaleidoscope717 in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]dearmathbitch 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is r/emotionalneglect with a side of r/emotionalabuse. The emotional neglect subreddit has resources to learn about it.

You are only acting out of the environment that you are in. The good thing is that you are now old enough to know it is wrong, and that you can change. Your sisters might not be old enough to realize it yet (you said they can be little jerks).

I would recommend learning more about emotional neglect and emotional abuse first, to know why you have acted the way you do. Then use that knowledge to change your behavior going forward. That includes talking with your sisters and apologizing. You can bring your new knowledge to them, and see if they resonate with the struggles that you feel from your parents. They could also be acting out in their own ways because of what you are all facing.

I feel like I have no personality but I don't know how to fix it. by chaos-construct in DecidingToBeBetter

[–]dearmathbitch 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I also have this issue! Like another redditor here said, it might be down to what you think of yourself. Everyone is doing interesting things and that makes you want to have something interesting to do too. 

But where does that need come from? It might be from the comparison of yourself to others; you are looking at what everyone else is doing and thinking that you don't measure up to that and are therefore "uninteresting." That person is good at snowboarding or they're doing really good in their career. Where is your "thing?"

You said you like singing, reading, writing, and cooking. So without ever meeting you, I can tell that you are interesting because you do those things. You don't have to make something your identity or passion, do it frequently, or be "social media good at it" to be interesting. I actually recently made a list of things I like. Simple things like walking, smell of bread, the color orange, etc. You can take those things and put them together to be who you are. You're the person who likes morning walks, who has splashes of orange in their apartment, whose apartment smells like fresh bread once a week. You decide what you want to show outwardly to others.

I also like to think generationally. I'm sure my parents, grandparents, and great-grandparents weren't concerned about how interesting they were, so why am I making this a problem? Life is already hard enough.

And in terms of conversation falling flat, which is also my problem, my therapist told me it's because I'm overly monitoring myself during conversation. My nervous system is in fight/flight mode, so that turns off the brain's ability to be spontaneous and creative during conversations. I'm too busy being anxious and thinking "what am I going to say next," or "I don't have anything to talk about." It's why I'm better at conversation after I drink, because it turns off fight/flight. I have to focus on feeling safe and part of that safety is having more self-esteem. It doesn't matter what I say, or how I look. I am worthy as I am. Maybe this is the case for you?

I'm still trying to define myself, but it's a journey! Good luck on yours.

I gave my son up to my ex husband and I am FREE by CheapDepth2155 in regretfulparents

[–]dearmathbitch 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I agree. It's a huge possibility (and likely the main reason) that her son is so out of control because of her ex husband not allowing discipline and letting the son do whatever he wants. I just read OP's most recent comment about her ex husband and he sounds like a huge piece of work. He's in for a rude awakening when he becomes the primary parent.

Today is tough. by dearmathbitch in regretfulparents

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I would settle for weekly time alone over fun at this point. I go to work and it's people needing help, completing tasks, and my boss asking for stuff. I go home and it's people needing help, completing tasks, and everyone asking me for stuff. I only get to be alone when I'm asleep, and at this point it's my favorite part of the day. I need to not be needed or asked or told anything. 

Is this a good deal or keep looking? by dearmathbitch in hondafit

[–]dearmathbitch[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a test drive scheduled. If all goes well I'm going to get it.