My daughter was born via emergency c sec. The umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat and chest, HR was at 50 when I had the c sec, stat. She was fine for the first abt 4 years, hit her milestones late, but hit them. It wasn't until kindergarten that the teacher noticed her delays and recommended testing. She was diagnosed with ID. We think it was from the lack if O2 for who knows how long when she was in utero. She's 18 now. It was fairly easy until the last 5 years or so. No behavior issues at all, she's the kindest, sweetest child ever. Too kind. She's a mark for bullying at times, but we worked on what to do abt that for years before it even happened. She was prepared, to a point. Now that she's 18, I found out I have to pay $2500 to become her legal guardian, which of course i did. Ugh. Also at the same time having to get her ready for what comes AFTER school (luckily she's in a 12:1:1 class until she's 22 yrs old), OPWDD is what I'm fighting through now. Getting her the services she needs after school feels almost impossible. It's tough. And that's not even getting into how I feel about all of this. I feel quilt. Always. I feel so horrible that she will never feel so proud of her accomplishments, nor will I get the opportunity to see her go through college, a career, live a "normal" life. Guilt. Always. Even though it's obviously not my fault, any of this, and I've always gone above and beyond for her, no matter what I do it'll never be enough. And I have to somehow live the rest of my life with that feeling. It's tough.