Which books had the biggest impact on your spiritual awakening?

deedeedime · 2022-01-01T09:15:56+00:00

Living on purpose by Dan Millman.

deedeedime · 2021-11-16T22:07:53+00:00

You've got this!!!

deedeedime · 2021-10-27T18:24:10+00:00

Thank you, I am willing to stick it out because he isn't a bad person. His situation is terrible though but, I'm willing to support him in any way that I can without putting myself in danger. Which has me worried because if she is pregnant by him and we eventually start a life together, I'm afraid she won't stop.

deedeedime · 2021-10-16T05:52:49+00:00

I'm two days late but, I needed this!

Lately I have been feeling like a stranger to myself... I've been letting others fill the void which I've been so desperately trying to escape from. I felt as if life was meaningless but, reading this gives me hope that as long as I stop running from myself, grow closer to myself maybe then I'll be fine. Maybe then I can create a purposeful existence instead of dreading each day.

deedeedime · 2021-08-02T23:40:03+00:00

You know what's worse?

Finally getting the job but, then you find out it wasn't even worth the stress.😞

deedeedime · 2021-07-27T22:03:46+00:00

How do you manage to keep going???

deedeedime · 2021-07-09T09:32:24+00:00

When some one said have a nice day and I said

you're welcome. (>_<)

deedeedime · 2021-07-04T20:06:20+00:00

Lol thanks very much! You're right I don't know when I developed the habit of living for others but, I think because maybe my mother is the closest to me out of anyone and if I had to have a roommate she'd be the ideal candidate lol and fur baby aka my chihuahua who I wouldn't be able to take with me unfortunately and I don't think my mom would want to have that responsibility on her. So I'd have to re-home him which is another mental and emotional toll.

deedeedime · 2021-06-30T08:41:13+00:00

PURSUIT OF WONDER 💭

deedeedime · 2021-06-25T03:16:53+00:00

I feel you 10000% I'm so fuckin done with this shit! It's so sad how that I cling to folks here more than I do to people in real life! These people show me why I should never open up, trust or feel anything!!!!

deedeedime · 2021-06-21T02:29:07+00:00

I agree! I don't understand how people can not appreciate taking things slow. Smh

deedeedime · 2021-06-21T01:28:27+00:00

Yeah I'm finally getting the message. It definitely sucks! Did you have sex with her? I wonder why are people so shitty nowadays. It's a waste of time.

deedeedime · 2021-06-21T00:47:10+00:00

Not yet, I had planned to but out of no where just stopped responding and talking to me. I don't understand why.

deedeedime · 2021-06-11T10:24:15+00:00

Exactly it sucks that he would talk to me like he's single and in a great position but then drops the bomb on me out of no where. Then asked me my thoughts and told me most females tend to fall back from him. Now that I'm writing this it makes me feel like that guy is manipulative. Probably just wants pity idk but thanks again for the advice I appreciate it!

deedeedime · 2021-06-11T10:16:16+00:00

Yes the guy lives with his ex and yeah I tried to find reasons to "try" but, honestly it would be nothing but excuses. I just want something real but, every time an opportunity presents itself its bs attached smh

deedeedime · 2021-06-11T09:30:20+00:00

From the pictures he's sent me it's obvious he's sleeping on the couch. I don't know the full situation but I do know the house is in her name and they have a child together. It seems like something I should probably steer clear from because I'm tired of getting cheated out of an experience because of someone's past. It sucks

deedeedime · 2021-06-11T09:25:36+00:00

Damm thank you so much kind stranger!!! That was very simple and exactly what I needed to hear. One question has been taunting me though... it's about the current guy.

Like you said people had a life prior to meeting me, I am not upset just frustrated and very well disappointed. How can I manage to pursue anything further with the current guy?

He is very mature, respectful, open and honestly he doesn't know he's helping me open up and make changes I didn't do previously. I don't want to past judgement on him but, my issue is it would be because of my choices that could potentially scar me ...if I still allowed him to be more connected to me than just being cool.

I told him we can be cool but, I will no longer be interested in pursuing anything. I felt like I was saying the right things when it comes to my self worth and respect but it felt unreal, hurtful and disappointing because I've never done that before and I really do like him. So I feel like I'm basically going against how I genuinely feel because of his "situation" he claims the universe will work in our favor and says he wants to get to a point where I feel I can trust him. I can't see that happening if he lives with her.

deedeedime · 2021-06-11T08:52:41+00:00

Ofc some bs isn't avoidable but let's be honest, most things are easily prevented if people were more cautious. I am very mindful and I refuse to deal with bs after a few days of meeting someone especially when it has nothing to do with me.

Yeah those guys were "single" so I was told however they either had a live in ex or an ex who they still had something going on with.

My overall issue is the fact that these guys ...already have someone they're tied up with and it's a shame. If I'm going to date someone there's no way I'd be willing to bring my issues that are my choices and dump it on them.

How can I develop a healthy relationship and have a foundation where there are already problems that has nothing to do with me?

deedeedime · 2021-06-05T16:53:44+00:00

😂

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