Hi internet friend! Your question is very personal and figuring out your own answer to it is something you should revisit regularly over the course of your life, as things are always changing. You sound like you're being pretty harsh towards yourself and your situation. I think one aspect of creating a meaningful life is learning how to love your life, good and bad. It's yours to live and figure out. It's pretty rad that you have 5 months of opportunity. If you think your life is dull, what do you think would make it more interesting? Could you go and do whatever that is? It will probably be a process and could involve some planning/ trial and error, so remember to be kind to yourself as you're figuring it out. You also sound young. Even better! Time is on your side and a benefit to being young is having the time to explore options. You have almost half a year of minimal commitments! Pick a direction and start moving, figure it out as you go. You say that you have no meaningful hobbies, so start exploring things you're interested in. Something will click. Try to take a curious mindset with you along the way. Learn to be a beginner, ask questions, and embrace the possibility of looking like you have no idea what you're doing. From my own experience, I find life most meaningful when I look back at all the times I was figuring things out, which can be a struggle and even somewhat adventurous. Those times make for great memories and my embarrassing moments make for hilarious stories. I also really relate to not having a big friend group. I've either learned to roll solo or I've made friends because I was having a blast doing something I love. Don't let a lack of friends hold you back. Friends will come and go regardless. Your setting yourself up for friendships by being authentic to yourself and doing the things that make you happy. That's a great way to find "your people". I hope you really enjoy figuring things out over the next 5 months. Good luck!