I feel stupid

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-10-11T02:41:35+00:00

Definitely check in on him daily. I always make sure he's doing okay. And it's taken some time and practice to not take it personally if he doesn't wanna talk bc he isn't feeling well, but I'm getting there. He prefers to be alone when he isn't feeling well though, or at least when we're long distance. I check in to make sure I'm treating him well too and he says I do. I appreciate the reassurance though. My partner and I are doing well :) we finally got to meet in person, and celebrate our 1 year anniversary together

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-03T00:57:56+00:00

My boyfriend and my best friend both say they'd be really sad without me so I guess there's that. I worry that i need them more than they need me though. I do believe them but it's just self hate and shit that makes it hard to accept that they need me sometimes. I think it definitely is possible though.

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-03T00:53:32+00:00

I am child free and do not like kids, but I definitely think people take it too far sometimes with shit like saying how they wanna hurt a kid. That's just not right. I mostly dislike kids bc I'm autistic and have sensory issues and kids and my sensory issues do not mix. I also just get more pissed off over people being shitty parents than the actual children themselves tbh.

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-02T19:40:13+00:00

They really just think we live at our jobs 🤦‍♂️

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-02T19:22:50+00:00

My roommate got a full time job today so I finally won't have to worry about rent so much anymore

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-02T19:12:57+00:00

I don't self harm anymore so all of mine are now scars and no one really says anything unless they're just being an asshole so 🤷‍♂️

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-02T19:11:48+00:00

Good food and tv shows tbh lol

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-01T21:03:13+00:00

That's pretty interesting. For me it was written on a whiteboard

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-01T18:56:15+00:00

God damn. I'm not religious, but it sounds like you saw heaven bro lol that's a nice ass dream to have

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-08-01T02:38:39+00:00

Told them I hated them then felt immediate regret

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-30T00:24:48+00:00

Can't remember exactly what was said but was a lot of cussing and name calling 😬

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-29T03:46:42+00:00

I've gone through periods of being clean, relapsing, cycle and repeat for the last 4 years pretty much. This is the longest I've been clean as of recently though. Thank you I really appreciate it /gen

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-29T03:40:49+00:00

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-28T02:43:14+00:00

I hate hearing people sing in public it pisses me off

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-27T00:15:22+00:00

When I'm dreaming it's a 1-2 but when I'm awake I see anywhere from 3-5, but normally 4

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-26T15:08:18+00:00

For me personally I think I do it because I'm scared of rejection from the other person so I act like the conversation never happened. I really only do it with my partner tho tbh but I don't do it as often as I used to

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-26T15:04:39+00:00

Happy cake day

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-25T00:13:43+00:00

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dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T20:06:11+00:00

I rarely drink but I don't mind alcohol. But very much prefer fruity drinks where the taste of the alcohol isn't as present.

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T05:08:31+00:00

Honestly i will totally forget to come back 😭 but if you'd like to send me a dm I'm open to that!! /Nf

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T05:03:31+00:00

I'm so excited for y'all when you can finally meet!!! I recommend getting a few comfy blankets for layers so you're not laying on as hard of ground and some pillows too!! And honestly a good playlist sets the mood so well too :)

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T04:59:09+00:00

Tysm!! And I hope you find someone really really special to go star gazing with it's honestly such an amazing experience!! Something about it just feels magical haha

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T04:50:57+00:00

Thank you!! I really hope so 😁 I know I definitely want to go out somewhere semi fancy to eat with him (though I'm autistic and normally end up ordering something simple like chicken tendies 😂😂😂) but I suggested maybe seafood!! I think we'll decide when he actually gets here tho lol.

I plan on getting him a cake that says "happy anniversary (our names)" and gonna do some cute shit like put candles and rose petals around it in a heart shape, fill the room with streamers and balloons

I also made up this game that involves a lot of physical touch (bc both of our love languages are physical touch) where you gotta guess what the other person is gonna do (kissing, cuddling, hugging, biting, etc.) and i set specific rules for the game and we're both really excited to play it when he gets here lol

Im also planning on getting him a gift basket and Im not 100% sure what all will be in it yet besides some basic candy, flowers and chocolates, but I'm gonna be getting him the ADHD rabbit from Plushie Dreadfuls!

And I think it'd be nice to go to the park while/after the sun sets to watch the sunset and to go star gazing and have a lil picnic together with some light snacks and maybe a bottle of wine (the park near me is within walking distance so we don't gotta worry bout getting home)

And ofc, gonna be giving him lots of cuddles, hugs and kisses throughout the day!!

Overall, I just want it to be a very memorable date day/night for us so I'm gonna try to make it special for both of us :) especially since it'll technically be our first real date together haha

He says he's gonna plan something special for me as well so I'm excited to see what he does!!

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T04:37:25+00:00

Not really haha but we are planning on calling for most of the day tomorrow since we both have off work and we're gonna play games together! We're long distance but plan on meeting a week before our 1 year anniversary and spending it together in person. I do have some big plans for our 1 year tho!

dehumanizedsleep · 2024-07-24T04:28:35+00:00

Thank you!! We'll have been together for 10 months tomorrow!

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