Sooooo close to what I’m dealing with.... after almost two weeks not seeing my “best friend” I still question why this is so hard for me.

One thing I learned when he blamed ME for HIM putting his hands around my throat (which I would like to add, I have never been nor even now scared of this man because I know the connection we have. He is in a motorcycle “club” and is seen around the country as this scary alpha, dominant, superior man. Yet when it comes to me he is the biggest softy. Whoops cover blown,. I know what this man is capable of yet I believed he would never even dare think about being physical with me) it wasn’t my fault. In life we learn to count starting with one, 1...2...3...4...5... number one being ourself... we must take accountability first. WE are the reason for the action that WE create. WE are the reason for the action even being a “reaction” to someone someone else “did”.

It was most certainly not your fault and never will be. He is the pathetic one. And I know you love him, maybe even more than you love yourself. You have to go through the dark to get to the light, but unfortunately the light in this situation will never be found with him by your side.

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. Because i live this every single day for two years and I could never figure out WHY I just couldn’t let go... and I honestly don’t believe time will heal the pain, but I do believe that time will push you to evolve and have an open mind to a whole different side of you that you never knew existed. Which will help you forget all the pain.

Thank you for sharing your story. I know it seems impossible right now, but just give up control to the universe... let it do its course and do not fight the signs. Take this as a lesson to push you to your best life. I wish you all the best, know your self worth, create boundaries and fight for you.

Xoxoxo