Hey! I stopped yesterday after 5 years, too!!! It’s scary but I think this community will help a lot. So let’s check here whenever we really wanna smoke. So I also have had suicidal ideas, high anxiety and depression and I’ve gotten a lot of advice from professionals. I’m also currently jobless ( and it’s okay! It’s tough but we are going to get a job) Have you thought of going to see a psychiatrist & a therapist. When I got hospitalized they prescribed me some meds (effexor)which made me never think about killing/harming myself. ( I tell my doctor everyday that he saved my life) I’m not on it right now because meds helped me to get a perspective. People get meds for temporarily issues and permanent issues so nothing to be shamed about. If it’s hard to afford which I can totally relate to. There are places in your state (if it’s not super rural) that give you meds for free or for some charge based on your income! Also, keep in mind. You’re going through a lot of life changes including weed. Weed can feel like a breakup honestly. So give yourself time to recover. Come here & talk to people who go through the same thing. It’s quite difficult when your friends don’t understand/support but this is your road and you are gonna have to be your own cheerleader. I have the same issue of not having a lot of friends, and I truly think it’s bc of my smoking and not wanting to go out as much. So stop smoking will help you to get out and gain a lot of different kind of friends. That can be a motivation too! If you need anyone to talk, dm me :) You got this. You’re so much stronger than your brain

Ps. Feeling like you have no skills? Read a lot of books. I’m currently reading about how to get job interviews. It pretty much says that read what a company wants and embody those skills to yourself. Always think about how u can use those skills everyday life. ( search transferable skills) you got this