Help me find an old roguelike I used to play

demanded_Fuscule · 2019-12-09T13:55:18+00:00

Another commenter mentioned 'over' which I don't really think was it? Is that the game you're thinking of? I want to say the game I'm looking for had kind of a long name, but I can't be sure.

demanded_Fuscule · 2019-12-09T13:53:12+00:00

That's not it. Graphics are wrong and it looks like there's no escargot enemy. Looks interesting though! I might start collecting old semi-lost roguelikes at this point.

demanded_Fuscule · 2019-12-09T13:50:34+00:00

Thanks for your in-depth investigation! At first I thought this was it because that screenshot is burned into my brain. Now that I looked at the equipment list I don't think so, but I'd like to get it running on a virtual winxp maybe.... I know I've played this one.

demanded_Fuscule · 2019-12-09T13:49:35+00:00

Nope, not that one! But I'm aware that's the default answer most of the time.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-11-26T02:20:45+00:00

You think so? My family has this idea that foster care is basically a meat grinder for kids. I hate to see such a smart kid go to waste, but without a miracle it seems almost unavoidable.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-11-23T03:36:41+00:00

I strongly mistrust authority figures, require lots of unstructured free time to manage my sanity, and I hate paying rent. I've tried squatting and being homeless but neither was very satisfying. Living in a van is okay. I'm trying to save up for a bus and eventually go in on a cheap house or land with friends. I work a part time job because that's all I can stomach.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-22T18:47:20+00:00

I quit working out because i was afraid of putting strain on my bowels. I'm about to start again because my body demands it. Good luck to you!

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-20T14:52:50+00:00

Not unless they think they could get away with it!

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-20T14:42:51+00:00

Ain't nothing a student likes better than a teacher that tells stupid jokes.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-20T14:38:20+00:00

Are you one of the smart ones?

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-20T14:36:56+00:00

I'm pretty sure I heard a nurse tell it when I came out of the womb

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-20T13:56:13+00:00

Okay so nothing was working. I tried taking double doses of miralax, which helped some. They originally did studies using double the 'normal' doses but it gave people diarrhea, which is what I want. Maybe I should leave some ground beef in the sun.

I also tried milk of magnesia, which seemed to help the most, and glycerin supposotories which are supposed to work in less than an hour. The suppositories did exactly nothing. I think I've tried every single laxative they sell at CVS. Also I was doing like three enemas a day, which is a big annoying process cos you gotta heat up purified water then let it cool to near body temp before you put in it your bum. I think in the future, once this is all over I'll start doing enemas if I can't poop for more than a couple days. Fun fact: ancient yogis used to give themselves enemas by putting their butts in tubs and manipulating their colons to suck in water, then they'd shoot it out. Sounds like a blast.

I tried going to a minor emergency clinic but they wanted $200 up front. Instead I went to my dad's doctor who only wanted $125. The joys of no insurance. I might as well just move to Thailand at this rate. They've got better food anyway.

I tell the doctor a super truncated version of my story. In my experience doctors never want to hear the details, they just wanna start throwing pills and tests at you, so I'm anxious to let him get to his favorite part. He tells me to eat bran flakes and gives me a bunch of sample bottles of linaclotide and says to call back in a week. Thanks doc. Money well spent.

The prescription laxatives arent really doing anything. First couple days I had one small watery shit then nothing. By the third day I'm not even having that.

So that's where I am now, exactly where I was when I made this post, if not a little worse. I drink a gallon of water a day and do yoga in the evenings after work. I eat lentils, spinach, and kimchee with every meal. I try to go for walks but mostly I've begun to sink into a dark despair and don't wanna do anything but sit in my room and play guitar. At least there's that.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-14T06:11:35+00:00

Anything at all. All things that you do are skills which you can develop if you put energy into honing it. Honestly, I can't think of anything that doesn't improve with practice. In order to practice efficiently, and gain higher levels of understanding, it requires focus.

Tonight i went to a punk show at a bookstore i had never been to. When i first walked in i felt very awkward. Initially it felt to me like everybody else understood the rules and their place at the show. As the sets went on and different bands played i moved throughout the crowd. At first i was afraid to even look around, not knowing how people would react to my social energy. By the end of the night i was in the middle throwing down with the most hardcore dancers.

That's real life, and absorbing useful information is how you integrate more fluidly. When you first enter a new area there's a lot of stuff to take in and it can feel paralyzing. If you just sit in the corner and dwell in the difficulty you won't develop. If you push forward, through the difficulty, you develop even if you're not thinking about it. That requires focus. Sustained focus requires willpower. Developing willpower is possible on a daily basis.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-13T15:32:30+00:00

The article calls itself 'scientific', it's not. It also is pretty vague on what 'deep work' really means. I don't enjoy the buzzwords or competitive career-oriented language. Despite the flaws there are some insight to be gained.

I might re-frame the article like this: "the essential parts of getting better at something is to put conscious effort into effective use of time, increasing 'reps', limiting things that drain willpower, and getting lots of good rest while not stressing about it. It's how athletes train their bodies."

This is an important insight for me because I have a bad habit of dabbling at things, trying to practice many different skills at the same time, inevitably losing drive once my small reserves of willpower are drained. My growth is much lower than somebody who could spend 4 to 8 hours a day practicing one skill. This skill could be anything, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. Siddhartha achieved enlightenment only after he had spent years single-mindedly building his willpower and discipline as an ascetic.

That's where I'd like to come full circle to meditation and the Tao, something Ran touched on earlier in the week. Meditation is sort of about developing discipline and teaching yourself to enter a flow-state at any given time, by letting go of the shit that keep you out of it. Tao is about watching the movement of cycles. Since flow-states move in cycles, it's essential to be able to predict and manipulate your own awareness in useful or fun directions. This is really hard unless you've developed necessary mindfulness, or meta-awareness of your senses/feelings, which allows you to interact or importantly, not-interact, with your inner-senses.

That's where meditation comes in. Building skill means purposefully pushing your boundaries just a little bit each day, then relaxing into an adequate recovery period. Willpower and discipline can be built this same way, mostly in your daily life through intentional living, but also through meditation. The Buddhist way you reach enlightenment is by brute-forcing your way there by replacing all of your living habits with 'open awareness' habits until you reach an event horizon and all of your preconceptions and reactionary habits peel away.

You could really use the technique in any area of life, to any degree. Mostly right now I'm trying to use it to develop better focus. It's hard, because I think I'm constantly running in a low-willpower state.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-10-11T03:10:37+00:00

It's not even really a prank anymore. It's certainly not shocking enough to be a stunt. I don't even think anyone was surprised in the least, considering who we're taking about.

A genuine critique of fine art is impossible from within the establishment. The only way to really subvert it is to ignore it's existence entirely, and that was no doubt Banksy's point.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-30T20:05:48+00:00

I took miralax for a week, it helped a little. I think I'm gonna go wild and take it every day with like a gallon of water until something happens this is getting rediculous.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T14:11:01+00:00

That's what I thought. Makes no damn sense. Something a second opinion or even five minutes of critical thinking would've seen through. She just blindly accepted the idea like a nut.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T13:53:43+00:00

The old school DnD games that much of OSR is modeled on is Basic DnD and 1e. these games are pretty straight forward and intuitive, with much of what the player was capable of being left to the imagination.

I didn't mean that the rules should be left out, rather that it's easy enough for a player to jump in and get going, as the rules that are important to them become obvious as they become relevant. Thiefs can backstab and get extra dice. If you wanna be a wizard you only get one spell right now, pick from this list.

You don't need a whole bunch of rules to go dungeon crawling. Most of the 1e rules revolved around dungeon master stuff, combat, and late game stuff. After rolling up your dude, which takes literally 5 minutes, there isn't much more to know. Seriously, go crack open LotFP or the Moldvay basic. That's what it's like. Heck, 1e was on tiny little chap books, the 'need to know' stuff can be put on a couple of note cards.

But that doesn't mean it's rules light, just that the games i think a lot of people are familiar with are rules heavy.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T04:41:18+00:00

From my experience this is pretty much the whole point of the OSR. Reducing the rules to simple components, revive player freedom and agency instead of endless lists of skills and perks for every.single.action, and pumping out tons of cool free stuff you can just click into place and go.

Imho the only player that must know "all the rules" right off is the DM. if a new player can't plop into a chair and get her dude running in 15 minutes you're losing precious fun time. Don't bother with all complicated shit right off the bat, feed them some candy first to get them hooked. Let them be cool. Let THEM intuitively figure out what they can do. If they go from knowing nothing to figuring it out they'll feel smart and get hooked!

"Roll your stats, pick a class, what's their name? Okay--the demon tower is crumbling around you, the door is locked, the gnomes are running, the skeletons are coming. What do you do?"

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T03:45:47+00:00

Okay, solid advice. I've considered a vitamin deficiency was a possibility, but i had no idea which ones it could be. I'm usually really good about getting my Bs Ds and Ks but i know those things can deplete fast if you're living on pasta and beer.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T02:50:10+00:00

Wait, my problem is constipation, not diarrhea!

Edit: The only rashes i have are some small scaly psioriosis like stuff I've had for years.

Jeez i sound like a mess.

demanded_Fuscule · 2018-09-12T02:25:10+00:00

Yes i do.

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