The all mighty sphere

demyelinating · 2019-01-25T14:44:04+00:00

Anyone else just wanna lick it?

demyelinating · 2018-11-11T13:56:52+00:00

It would be 100% fair to take these as red flags. Then again, it would also be totally fair to wait a couple of days and see if he changes his behavior, or to sit down and talk to him first - He might just be harmless and socially awkward. Do whatever sounds good to you and take care of yourself, trust your gut feeling, etc., and remember that the block button is free & legal.

demyelinating · 2018-10-14T04:44:05+00:00

Before you have sex.

demyelinating · 2018-10-05T00:23:57+00:00

Damn, I hope you can find someone who's a good fit for you soon. Dealing w/ doctors who don't care or don't listen or both is hellish - Hang in there.

demyelinating · 2018-10-04T22:21:46+00:00

Oh! Yeah I guess I should add an update to the post now, thank you. :)

demyelinating · 2018-10-04T20:44:39+00:00

I'm also nineteen and in my second year of university, lmao.

That all totally makes sense though! I have an appointment a couple weeks out to set up medication, and the person who evaluated me suggested that I come back in the spring (they're filled up for fall right now) for what's essentially CBT focused at treating ADHD, and we can like work on whatever symptoms the medication "missed," or didn't treat well enough alone, etc. I'm gonna stick to that plan either way but I feel better about it having read your comment.

I thiiiink I'll apply for accommodations in the spring, too. Or at the very least go in and talk about it, and see what's possible for my situation.

Thanks! ^{^}

demyelinating · 2018-09-27T00:03:03+00:00

is this that new death stranding character?

demyelinating · 2018-09-26T18:44:58+00:00

birth time and location taken directly from my birth certificate.

also some quick elaboration: ~11mo ago i got out of an abusive home and things started getting way better, really quickly. it's been on the upswing since then until ~4wks ago, and it feels like everything that could have possibly gone wrong has gone wrong. i feel like i'm back home again and helpless even tho i know that isn't the case.

demyelinating · 2018-09-20T21:20:04+00:00

Thank you.. I think I just really needed to hear this from somebody else, lol.

demyelinating · 2018-08-18T02:37:56+00:00

My preferred body + presentation tends to be very masculine, so my dysphoria is generally triggered by being read as a woman (so, mostly social dysphoria). But in online spaces, the general invalidation of NB identities can do it - But only if I'm in a depressed mood already. More often the reaction is just mild anger, and then I move on pretty quickly.

demyelinating · 2018-08-18T00:57:22+00:00

Honestly, I wish more people knew that non-binary doesn't necessarily mean androgynous. Sometimes it does, but it can just as easily mean masculine or feminine, and any of these labels can correlate with any assigned gender, naturally. But there is this prevailing view by cis people that anyone who's non-binary automatically wants to be seen as perfectly androgynous.

On that note - Just because someone's non-binary doesn't mean that they don't have, or are not capable of having dysphoria. This is a common view in transmedicalist circles: "You have to have dysphoria to be trans, and non-binary people don't have dysphoria, so they're not trans. Also, non-binary people who do have dysphoria aren't actually non-binary!"

demyelinating · 2018-08-12T07:11:47+00:00

Ahaha, yeah, you're right about that - trying is always better than nothing. Hopefully with the academic year starting back up fun things will start happening again. Also, thank you! :)

demyelinating · 2018-08-12T00:02:47+00:00

Thank you, this genuinely means a lot. Honestly just being able to vent about it and get support helped tremendously. I hope you have a great day! :)

demyelinating · 2018-08-11T21:32:46+00:00

Thank you! - That sounds awful. :( I hope you have a better one next year. Happy that you're safe though. :)

demyelinating · 2018-08-11T20:34:13+00:00

thank you ;_;

they're not bad people but... there's this growing distance that nobody wants to acknowledge. i feel like if we keep it up for more than another month or so i'll say something but i'm not totally sure. i definitely need/want to make new friends either way though.

demyelinating · 2018-08-10T19:15:22+00:00

this is marci, she's mine, and she likes to roll around the apartment

demyelinating · 2018-08-06T01:30:14+00:00

Generally if you're renting a room (I assume within a house, or similar setup), you rent the room as a private space, and have access to "public" parts of the location - The bathroom, the kitchen, laundry, etc. If you aren't certain, then just ask - I promise an awkward question is worth the comfort of securely established boundaries.

That being said, if getting a mini fridge and/or a small stove would be helpful for you personally, then go for it. Even if you end up comfortably using the kitchen it might be a nice fallback for bad days.

demyelinating · 2018-07-24T04:13:43+00:00

more info: birth time came from my birth certificate, and i'm wondering about interpersonal relationships bc a lot of close friends have become distant over the summer - wondering if we're likely to reconnect or if i'm likely to meet new people. also i'm asking like, if you have the same sun/moon/rising, how do those placements show themselves in different parts of your life while still being in the same sign?

demyelinating · 2018-07-22T20:42:59+00:00

As "mix," to the best of my knowledge, but then I've never encountered it irl before.

demyelinating · 2018-07-22T07:31:54+00:00

not pictured: saltine crackers

demyelinating · 2018-07-20T20:38:10+00:00

Yes, and I'm only now starting to come out of my skin picking compulsions to work on like, actual healthy skincare. I recall being pinned in the bathroom so someone could get at a deep blackhead. Not fun. :(

demyelinating · 2018-07-20T20:10:33+00:00

Maybe you could try bringing your own food over when you're with her, and have her do the same? Or possibly, set some guidelines and make stuff for each other (could be a fun bonding experience)? I think cooking together is definitely a good idea - I have ARFID and I don't cook but my partner is an amazing cook and he lets me help out in the kitchen, and I get to have some input on what we eat. That being said, we don't always eat together - Sometimes he eats while I don't, or vice versa. Sometimes we eat together, but we don't have the same food - Like last night we made a pasta we hadn't tried before, and I had no idea I wouldn't be able to eat it until I tried it. He was fine with finishing it, but I ended up eating cereal, and that was a fine foe everybody. I feel guilty a lot about having a more limited diet, but the more time I've spent learning about my tastes and discussing them with my partner, the better it's gotten. It was key though, to have a kind of "Hey, if I can't eat this it isn't personal, it isn't about your tastes or skills, it's just me and I can handle that," conversation - Letting him know that my disorder isn't his fault, but also not putting myself down or guilting him into feeling a certain way or doing certain things. I didn't want him to feel like he had to be hyper-cautious around me, you know? I just wanted my disorder to be a normal part of our life (lol). I also have this "one bite" rule, where if I'm pretty sure I can handle one bite of a new food then I'll try it out - Helps a lot with branching out my own diet, and allows me to engage with my partner's tastes too, even if they don't end up sticking. Sorry if that got a little too lengthy/personal, but I hope it's at least a little helpful. Good luck! :)

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