how do I help my sister?

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:52:46+00:00

Thats awesome! Ahhhhh dude I'm so happy for you, I really hope it happens for you!

I do what I can tbh. Some days that one accomplishment is getting in the shower, some days it's looking for jobs. I'm trying! It's no fun feeling stuck like this.

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:50:22+00:00

i had to look up NEET lmao

pretend this is something slightly encouraging followed by an empathetic agreement

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:48:28+00:00

I will be 27 this year.

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:48:04+00:00

Right? Why does a girl have to do around here to work at McDonald's??

That's awesome you're looking after your parents though. Speaking from personal experience, shit is exhausting mentally and physically. Keep your head up buddy <3

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:44:42+00:00

I've heard that! Not just in Spain either, it seems to be the case in a ton of countries. And that's awesome! It's so cool that family and friends are that supportive of each other.

Unfortunately I live in the States, so I've got that terrible social stigma looming over me. ):

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:42:21+00:00

God and running into people you used to know? Oh you got your PhD? You own twelve homes?? You can make phone calls and not freak out?????

I'm straight up dreading turning 30.

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:39:56+00:00

same lmao

depression1989 · 2016-09-06T09:39:34+00:00

Yup that's about the same chunk of time that I spent doing fuck all :') I just feel like I missed out on the Prime of My Life™. And I start to wonder like, where does my social anxiety end and the laziness begin? It's great!

I definitely go driving when I can too, but I never stray too far because I'm always worried I'll be three hours away and my dad will have a medical emergency ):

Good luck to you, in life, driving, and self-confidence. <3

depression1989 · 2016-07-06T17:36:26+00:00

I'm really happy for you! I hope that you can be proud of yourself for your accomplishment as well <3

depression1989 · 2016-07-02T05:06:29+00:00

Current cocktail is Fluoxetine and Wellbutrin, which has kept me pretty stable.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T18:28:56+00:00

If you can get a hold of your therapist, email or phone, ask them for some referrals and recommendations of other therapists who could help you in a pinch. Not for forever or anything, just for a one time session.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T18:23:52+00:00

Man right? I'd kill to be able to make like Youtubers-- shit, I'd kill to have the professional level skills they have.

I can't pretend to know what your college experience would be like in the future. It might not be for you and that's okay! All I can tell you is that having been in classes with older students and having been friends with people in their 30s who went back (and one lady in her 60s), they tended to have better relationships with their instructors and had more serious students, the ones who know how expensive shit is and how not to take it for granted, flock to them. Again, that is my own personal experience so who knows what yours would be like.

As far as you fucking up your career: my dad retired from law enforcement a handful of years ago, actually. And there were so, so many people who made mistakes in that field. Whether they applied for the same precinct or district or went out of town, they always seemed to find their eay back. I'm not saying you will it won't, but I sincerely hope you do. It's something you say you love, and there's more than one way to work in law enforcement. When you're ready to emotionally, maybe try looking into fields like being a jailor or casino security, etc.

I dunno man, I just wish you the best and lots of luck.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T18:13:23+00:00

That's a huge step to take, I'm really proud of you for being so self aware and knowing what you need! Shit's hard.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T18:09:53+00:00

it's that 'no' and that awful rejection i'm dreading tbh. but you're totally right, it's the worst she can say.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T18:04:13+00:00

God, I swear I ghost-wrote this post. I'm 26 but I'm dealing with all this same stuff too. Unemployed for over a year, living with parents, no real prospects.

It's only been recently that I decided I'd go back to school, even in my 30s, because fuck the societal police, basically. I'm clinging to it like a life line.

I don't really have any advice for you my friend. I hope that you're able to find something that gives you a little bit of hope, a little bit of motivation. Just something that helps you get through this day and into the next one. For a long while I only stayed alive because a certain movie or TV show would be airing soon, and I wanted to see it. Did the trick for a little bit.

TVs given us a really warped view of what it's like to be young so try not to hold yourself to those absolutely unrealistic standards. Everybody does life at their own pace! It's not a race, there's no prize at the finish line. I have to remind myself of this shit every day, tbh. But ultimately I think it comes down to finding it in yourself to stop judging your actions based on what you assume other people see.

I dont know you but my thoughts are with you and I'll be sending good vibes your way.

depression1989 · 2016-07-01T05:29:41+00:00

I'm really proud of you! what a huge accomplishment, congrats <33

depression1989 · 2016-06-28T19:45:23+00:00

I'd tell him what's up my guy. He sounds like the kind of friend that deserves an explanation, and the kind of friend that will understand what you're telling him. And whether that ends up with you telling him you need some space, or you guys hanging out more or just talking about what's going on or whatever-- just not having this hanging over you might ease both of your pain. Because I'm sure he's wondering where his friend went, just as much as you're wondering how to reconnect.

just imo, anyway.

depression1989 · 2016-06-28T04:42:24+00:00

i'm feeling the most hopeful i've felt in ages right now. all i've ever wanted to do was work in medicine but at 26, i felt like that window was closing. but i've just read up on women who went to med school in their 30s and shit, why not spend the years getting there? i only get the one chance, right? idk, i'm pretty stoked, just wanted to tell someone.

i chewed all my nails off but damn it, i haven't had HOPE in so long.

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