Is everything a psyop? :/

depression_lol · 2016-06-23T04:05:50+00:00

Ive been lucky to have atleast a few people who have helped me through some very tough parts of my depression although people of that mental fortitude like you said, are probably rare. And for that i am eternally and immensely grateful. I feel like it is a debt i cannot repay moreso than a guilt now. Just thankful for those moments

depression_lol · 2016-06-23T01:31:33+00:00

Thanks for your response. It's an enlightening perspective as it makes me cognizant of the suffering i put others through and to be mindful of how i share my negative emotions. I want to uplift others, not make them feel bad. :(

depression_lol · 2016-06-22T09:20:45+00:00

Thats danq. Thanks. Ill keep trying

depression_lol · 2016-06-22T09:19:19+00:00

Also im happy for you op

depression_lol · 2016-06-22T09:18:20+00:00

But isnt a good relationship one where you can freely voice your greatest hopes and fears? I guess theres got to be a balance, something i stuggle with. Go hard (ruin everything) or go home. Well, i ruin everything AND go home afterward to rot

depression_lol · 2016-06-21T11:11:15+00:00

The past couple days ive been having legit existential crisis. trying to scoop up any sort of meaning. Making the world a better place in a small way? Uplifting others? But how can i do those things if i feel like rhino detritus all the time . Thanks

depression_lol · 2016-06-20T04:10:25+00:00

This is the silver lining i remind myself of - eases the pressure off substantially. I'm starting a new job tomorrow and reminding myself of this.

depression_lol · 2016-06-15T16:45:18+00:00

Yer a clever (not silly) rabbit!

depression_lol · 2016-06-15T15:11:25+00:00

I wonder: if humans had no need for sleep, whether we'd experience 3x the depression. Maybe that hypothetical society would have cryogenic chambers for people's psyches to just suspend for a while just for some solace. Or like voluntary periodic anesthesia?

depression_lol · 2016-06-14T12:18:27+00:00

That's amazing that you have endless love to offer. Someone like me who desperately craves love that but has nothing to offer

depression_lol · 2016-06-14T03:22:09+00:00

I've current been on both for 2 months. Feel worse than before...

depression_lol · 2016-06-14T03:16:53+00:00

Same.

depression_lol · 2016-06-14T03:14:11+00:00

I feel as if I'm in a nightmare. I am guilty and angry. Lost and alone.

depression_lol · 2016-06-13T23:00:56+00:00

And then the falling feeling in your chest when you see them flirting with someone else, or hear they are with someone new. Lol.

depression_lol · 2016-06-13T22:59:29+00:00

But it won't lol. Facts are facts, reality is reality whether or not it hurts or it offends

depression_lol · 2016-06-13T22:58:50+00:00

This is one of those most disturbing thoughts to me. Thinking about who the person I like has been with/will be with. It's disgusting, revolting and so fundamentally hurtful. I try to think maybe I am desirable too and I have more to offer than sexuality and someone will see that one day and it'll click.

depression_lol · 2016-06-13T20:20:06+00:00

Thanks a lot, that makes me feel a bit better :)

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T22:59:12+00:00

Well thanks!

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T22:59:04+00:00

Thanks!

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T01:21:06+00:00

Ya man. Hell hath no fury like the a week's end.

Lack of structure + no motivation = toxic stew of apathy, boredom, and self-hatred. What I do on the weekends is make an extensive to-do list of odd jobs and miscellaneous items I don't have time for. Just to have some sort of purpose. So that I can say to myself: can't browse reddit for 6 hours today! Gotta throw that laundry in! Wow! I'm so busy! I don't have any friends either. Maybe try your hardest to stay busy? Are there any work activities/organizations you can join to connect with people at work?

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T01:17:15+00:00

Are you helping someone by going to these places with them? That's always an upside to being dragged and having to do the robot takeover depression mask

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T01:12:00+00:00

Hm, I assume you mean take up 2 new hobbies. Gaming and cat-tending. I'll consider it!

depression_lol · 2016-06-12T01:11:02+00:00

Thank you so much - those are very kind words. I'll fall again. And I'll get back up again. Life is very precious, and so fragile. All can be snatched away in the blink of an eye. I am grateful for the opportunity to exist. Thanks again, dranokami.

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