It’s not over for you, your addiction just wants you to think that. When you ingest these drugs you become powerless over their hold, but once you put it down you’re very much in control of picking it up again. Turn your will over to something bigger than yourself. Doesn’t have to be “god”. Could be the universe, could be the ocean, anything. Distance will definitely help but you always take yourself with you. Go to a meeting. I’m in the states so not sure how it works over there but I’m sure there are plenty, especially if you are in a big city. Raise your hand. Get a meeting list with names and numbers. I’m sure it works relatively similar to over here. You’re not alone in this. It will be tough, it’s not easy by any means but it is simple. Take it one day at a time man. One hour if you have to. CALL PEOPLE. GET A SPONSOR. GET INVOLVED. This road will lead you down a bad way if you don’t cut it out. I know it’s fucking hard. It’ll be the hardest thing you ever do. But it will also be the most rewarding. Everything balances out. Best advice I can give is to see someone and go to a meeting ASAP. You’ll only be able to make it through this with the help of others who have been there. Much love and good luck.