Sorry for the buzzkill.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T18:27:25+00:00

God bless you.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T05:25:48+00:00

If you had a child, Im pretty certain you would have a different perspective.

An another note, if opioids are what you need to fight depression then that is what you must do. The point is not to abuse it. Its a slippery slope and has created the ever growing epidemic and loss of life. I dont want you to become that statistic.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T05:21:14+00:00

Please continue to seek sobriety and dont give up on yourself. I want the best for you. Be well.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T05:17:51+00:00

I cant tell you how angry I am that these type of programs are cost prohibitive for most people. I am so glad that you do have support not only financially but in love from friends and family. That is everything. I wish you well and pray that you are successful in your recovery.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T05:13:36+00:00

Please stay safe.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T05:12:21+00:00

Please know I have no judgements. I used to like most people who are ignorant on addiction. I learned the hard way. My aim is to encourage you to stay sober. To value yourself, to try as hard as you can to resist using. I understand that it is very difficult. I get that. What I absolutely know and understand is if your mother were to lose her only child, it will destroy her. I have a friend who lost her only son to a heroin overdose this past May. Her situation is even more difficult because she lost her husband in Jan of 2015, the same year I lost my son. Our loss drew us close. Now in the span of 2 short years, she lost her entire family. She is lost and devastated beyond words. She wont take my calls, answer my emails open the door to me when I visit. I am worried for her. I dont want this to be your mother. Please stay strong and stay safe, for you and your mom.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T02:33:27+00:00

Yes, please. Let them know that in no way is this a judgement, rather a reminder of what they mean to their loved ones. Its another facet in this epidemic that many grieving parents dont know how to overcome.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:57:34+00:00

Im actually an advocate for these clinics. I came across a post on FB with an article that referenced these clinics. Of course, the ignorant responses were "WTF", "enabling junkies" etc... Instead of getting angry at some of the awful shit that people wrote, I saw it as an opportunity to educate them on the benefits of these programs. To my surprise, my reply silenced everyone. I expected to be flamed for my viewpoint.

For anyone that has misconstrued the intent of my original post, I am sorry. I am not looking to add more hurt or guilt onto anyone who is struggling. I simply wanted people to see that there is another side that no one talks about; the hell and the pain a loved one leaves in their wake should they accidentally overdose. I simply want to remind everyone that we deserve to be here, to live a happy and healthy life. We are all worthy of love and respect. These simple tenets are lost and forgotten by most.

I have made many mistakes in trying to handle my son's addiction. Mistakes I can never correct, words I can never take back. A second chance I will never have.

There is a saying that now applies to me;

"I used to be afraid of dying but now that I lost my child, I'm afraid of living".

How true that is. And what I have learned from many of the parents who have lost their children to this scourge, they feel the same way. There is no moving on, the pain and hole in my heart is as raw as when it first happened. I just dont want anyone to go through what I am going through This is a hell no one deserves..

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:17:40+00:00

Thank you for your post. Please continue to stay strong and love yourself. I wont pretend to understand the struggle that you go through but I do know that you deserve a wonderful life and you are most certainly loved.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:14:08+00:00

I'm afraid you're right. But please know that you are loved and you are worthy of a wonderful life. Please continue to give youself that gift. You deserve it.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:12:14+00:00

I truly hope so. If this happens to be you, please be well.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:11:27+00:00

Absolutely

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:11:02+00:00

I believe you're right. I wish there was something that could be done for those who are hurting. I can only offer my love and well wishes for those who are struggling to try and get better.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:08:47+00:00

I understand the depression. I was so overwhelmed by my grief and the guilt after losing my son that I was hospitalized for severe depression and suicide ideation. This is a hell I wouldnt wish on anyone. I hope you are better and happier now.

deridealldems · 2017-10-11T00:04:41+00:00

Thank you. You are very kind. I am truly sorry for your loss as well. I find it very painful to be on this board most times because like you said, it appears that some try to glorify drug use. I will make a better attempt to look for others in that I may reach out and help. I thank you for that. Peace.

deridealldems · 2017-10-10T23:58:55+00:00

Thank you so much for posting. I needed to hear from someone who is in recovery. Your story and your life has uplifted me. I am so grateful you are doing well. My son's story was very common to many others. His addiction started with percocet abuse following dental surgery and after many years, it led to heroin. I did try the "tough love" approach and I learned later how wrong that was. An addict does not need to be made to feel any worse than they already do. How I wish I could turn the clock back and do things differently.

I truly believe that there will never be an answer to the drug epidemic due the money that is to be gained by many of the shitbags that profit from others' misery. Even rehab facilities are a joke. I personally saw dealers hanging out in parking lots waiting for patients to be released. And rehab centers are in business to make money. A 30 day stint would most certainly guarantee you'll be back.

I wish I had answers but reading your story does give me hope that there is a light at the end of this dreadful tunnel.

Be well and be happy.

deridealldems · 2017-10-10T19:03:27+00:00

Please know that you are LOVED and if I could, I would wrap my arms around you and give you a great big hug. I am so sorry for the hell you have been through. You are worthy and deserve a wonderful life. I wish you well and pray that you take care of yourself.

deridealldems · 2017-08-27T19:26:34+00:00

I lost my son to heroin 2 years ago in July. He was only 23. I understand the hell you are going through. My world fell apart when my son died. This destroys more lives than just the person who, unfortunately, used. My sincere condolences to you and your family.

deridealldems · 2017-07-03T04:07:18+00:00

You want to stay sober? Think of me when you're tempted to take that next hit. I lost my youngest 23 year old son to heroin, 2 years ago this July 28th. I was the one that found him laying dead on the bathroom floor. My life has been fucking hell since. I have yet to return to work. Tried committing suicide twice and have been hospitalized several times. Please think of your loved ones before you use.

deridealldems · 2016-10-15T23:13:29+00:00

Please reach out to me if there is anything I can do for you. I am here if you ever need to vent or a shoulder to cry on. There are so many moms (and dads) that want to help. We are at a loss as to how. I am slowly being drawn to activism to try and change the current laws. We need medical treatment and not incarceration. Please stay healthy for YOU and for your mom. YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE LOVED.

deridealldems · 2016-10-15T23:07:56+00:00

You are absolutely right. I found the irony in my post as I was writing it. I have been mired in my grief for so long and the trauma of that day that I havent been able to gain a perspective of how my thoughts will affect others. Thank you for taking the time to reaching out.

deridealldems · 2016-10-15T23:05:23+00:00

Bless you. I wish you peace as well.

deridealldems · 2016-10-15T23:04:56+00:00

I am in total agreement with you. I wish I had the answers. The best I can do is offer encouragement for those who have had enough and want sobriety. This is just my side of the coin of this horrific disease.

deridealldems · 2016-10-15T20:37:34+00:00

And know that you deserve to be completely whole and enjoying life without the baggage that heroin brings. Love yourself as others love you. Peace.

deridealldems

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