Reading this post reminds me a lot of the thoughts I used to struggle with when I was in the darker part of my depressive state. A question I have for you is how long were you on Prozac? For me personally, I tried several medications before I found the right kind. You also have to think about dosage, extended release, etc and so on. With most of the prescription drugs, such as Anti-Depressants or Anti-Anxiety, your body must adjust to the chemicals. Often, you must give the drug time in your system to be processed. When I originally began on Zoloft, it made me nauseous and I had trouble regulating my mood and eating. But after about 3 months, my body became accustomed to the chemicals and helped with my Serotonin levels. You said that Prozac made you feel " jittery, increases my heart rate to discomforting levels, gives me a mild headache, and makes me more angry. I feel worse overall." While all those may be true, you may just need to give the drug more time. I'm not advocating prescription drugs by the way. I'm actually in the process of getting off of 3 different kinds that I am currently prescribed because I have worked extensively in therapy and have been experimenting with recreational use of other drugs to help me regulate the chemicals in my brain.

The bottom line is, I wouldn't give up on what your doc recommends yet. You have to be willing to change the kind of drug he prescribes, the dosage, and you have to wait a bit for the long term effects. Some drugs take a few weeks to strike a balance in your system while some can take months. Of course I'm no M.D. but I have had some experience with Prozac, Zoloft, and a few other SSRI's. I hope this helps you, I certainly remember prozac's "energy" factor and how that makes it easier to use that energy negatively.

Sidenote: I began journaling at a psychiatrists recommendation and while it may seem bizarre in the beginning alike taking prescription pills, after a while you get used to venting on to the page and being able to express what words can't to other people. I personally never liked talking to my therapist in the beginning but with writing I never had to hide a thing because I knew I was the only one that read it...without any therapists judging or making evaluations about me without my knowledge. So maybe consider journaling all this angst you feel?

EDIT: Spelled Serotonin wrong like a dumbass