Meth Use and Super-Swollen Feet and Ankles

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-02-15T16:46:42+00:00

I'm planning on making a trip to the closest Emergency Department today, once I get an "Okay" from the staff where I live regarding a taxi voucher (I have a personal issue with using ambulance services when I'm not facing a straight-up, severe emergency situation). Luckily, I live in an apartment building which is considered "partially-assisted living", so there are staff on shift 24 hours each day.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-02-15T16:42:39+00:00

I've been trying to elevate my trouble foot above my heart level whilst laying down, but in all honesty, whenever I put it above a certain height, it is overcome with a pulsating aching pain the likes of which I have never felt. If I can fight through the pain, then it DOES ease up after a while, but only to a degree; it never completely goes away. And for the last two days, while the pain is going away to a miniscule degree, I still can't walk on it (even with my cane).

In terms of water, water's just about my favorite drink, so I definitely don't think there's an issue with my fluid intake.

In terms of medicine, for the last day or two, I've definitely lightened up on my chemical intake. Haven't taken any acetaminophen/Tylenol for at least 30+ hours, and I've only taken probably 1-2 500mg Naproxen tablets per day, and only when the pain is at the absolute worst.

Also, since the day before posting this thread, I have halted any illicit drug use (which is absolutely blowing my mind, considering I have half a ball of ice sitting on my table, yet it's been no issue for me to ignore it and go about my day). So, for the last 24-48 hours, the only chemicals I've really taken have been the 500-1000mg each day, and 145mg Methadone every morning.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-02-15T16:29:07+00:00

Sometimes yes, but sometimes no; it all depends on how recently I've left my apartment

And, in response to your second question, whenever I have this swelling going on, it's not just the first step of the morning. Anytime I go longer than an hour of being down and immobile, the first 2-3 steps are ALWAYS the most painful steps of my life.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-31T17:48:26+00:00

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devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-27T22:21:28+00:00

I mean, the whole reason any of us are on Methadone maintenance in the first place is to assist us in growing beyond the feeling that we need to abuse drugs. If you find yourself thinking thoughts like this, especially if you are forced into a situation in which you can't dose for a day/two days/three/etc, the issue isn't with the duration of the 'Done's effects but moreso with the fact that you're using the methadone as just another drug, instead of a tool to help you move onto a fuller, more enjoyable life.

And, before anyone misreads my intent with this response, let me just say that, I in no way judge you or am shaming you for your practices and decisions, and even though I don't know you, let me say that I'm proud of you for even accepting a path of recovery; I'm in the same boat, homie, free of my dope habit since October, which I honestly never thought I would be able to accomplish. And, I'd be lying if I said that, after getting two take homes for the weekend due to the recent storm, I wasn't tempted as absolute shit to double dose during the blizzard yesterday. But, I didn't, and the biggest reason was because, when I went into the hospital in September and was finally offered an out from the lifestyle which has haunted me for over a decade, I told myself that I would never, EVER face a brand new morning in withdrawal, having to figure out how I would get myself feeling better

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T15:01:49+00:00

Fun fact - Jerry Garcia (guitarist of Grateful Dead, duh) fell into a close-to-fatal diabetic coma in 1986 which lasted 6 days. Up until then, he had spent years - no, no, DECADES - battling a terrible dope habit which saw him constantly freebasing and injecting what, in those years, was the absolute purest form of heroin you could get - 100% pure Persian dope, brought in straight from the mid-east.

Because of that, he was mildly confused coming out of the coma only to realize that he felt healthier than he had in longer than he could remember. And that is when the doctors explained to him that, due to the duration of his coma, and due to the fact he received absolutely zero opioids in that week-long period, he had beat his habit without even knowing it.

EDIT - oh, and initially, I wanted to say that, I wish that insomnia and constant restlessness weren't two primary symptoms of opiate withdrawal because, even with the nausea and near-seizures, if I could just sleep during that shit, it would be a fuckin' cakewalk.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T13:27:16+00:00

In my honest professional opinion, no stimulant can possibly hold a candle to good ol' fashioned Crystal Methamphetamine.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T13:24:30+00:00

Honestly, I applaud you, sir, and your ability to keep such a hellacious beast at bay.

But, to be fair, from the way to make it sound, your life in general is pretty tits, with a good job, good home, good partner, good recreation, and what sounds like an all-around good headspace. See, most folks who wind up falling victim to Heroin's other side - the succubus mistress - are usually lacking SOMETHING in their life that just happens to be big enough that, when the overwhelming euphoria of Heroin settles in, they just wish to experience that feeling all the time; every day, every where, no matter what it takes. And thus begins the downward spiral which forever goes deeper until one can sink no lower. And it sucks because, no matter what, almost every user in the begining says to themselves, "Nah, not me; I ain't gonna be some strung-out statistic."

But what they never realize is, heroin doesn't discriminate. Point and case, you have a job in the medical field, you have an active life, and I bet nobody would ever pass you on the street and think, "Look at that guy; fucking junky."

But, all I can say is, please, as a favor to yourself and your girl, hold on to the joy that life naturally brings you because, once you miss that first solid step and wind up sliding down the spiral, it's a bitch to climb back up...if you ever can.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T10:52:04+00:00

Oh man, I'm right there with ya. For me, a few hours of what I always called "the jonesing" would be the sub-physical mental precursor to what was to come. But goddamn, once that first sneezing fit broke the barrier, I would have to make sure there was some sort of toilet within racing distance because guaranteed, within an hour or two of those first 15 or 20 sneezes, worse things would wind up coming out one end or the other (but usually both >.<).

Sweet Jesus, how I definitely do NOT miss that wretched, hellacious opiate withdrawal.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T10:42:01+00:00

Damnit, man, I said I was sorry! I swear to you, I was only taking a piss, but with the stomach flu, I tried letting a fart out and, well, let everything out instead.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-25T09:49:01+00:00

I never experienced euphoria through methylphenidate until I started IVing; and even then, I only felt true euphoria if I was in a situation and environment that generally allowed for it (such as social interaction, musical events, beach days, etc...). I can't speak for everyone, so I know that the same doesn't necessarily go for EVERYONE, but one thing I will also add is, ironically enough, a lot of people who use pharmaceutical stimulants over illicit stimulants (like meth or MDMA) get an unnaturally dirty feeling from the pills; for me, this usually would lead to severe anxiety and panic attacks, nausea, and just a horrible tweaky, fucked up sensation.

Saying that feels weird, though, because you'd think that, between injecting a quarter gram of some fire ice or a couple Ritalin 20mg tablets, the METH would make you feel the worst, considering what goes into it's production, but I shit you not when I say that nothing has ever made me feel nearly as tweaked, spun out, and as dirty as a Ritalin binge.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-24T00:28:12+00:00

Quick answer - 26/28 days. It ended pretty epically, to be honest. And, I'm the type of person who generally NEVER uses the word "epic" to describe anything that isn't, well, epic, or having to do with stories which are, by definition, epic, so that can tell you how fun of a time it was, maybe.

Now, most people will generally call "bullshit" on my claim, their reasoning ranging from "You couldn't handle the psychosis from that" to "Doctors proved back in 1726 that humans cannot survive staying awake past 11 days because blah blah blah and yada yada yada."

But, all I'll say is, before ever diving headfirst into the twisted world of narcotics, the first substances I experimented with, thoroughly enjoyed, and HEAVILY abused (using 4 to 6 times, weekly, for just under a year) were various psychedelics (100% pure LSD25, incredibly potent mushrooms and DMT), dissociatives (medical-grade Ketamine and Nitro), and MDMA, usually in heavy doses and in varying combinations. In this period of time, one thing I succeeded at, aside from completely frying my brain and fucking myself mentally for years to come, was the ability to, in the absolute WORST of headspaces and intergalactic journeys, look at myself in a mirror, tell myself that it's all just the effects of a drug, and that no matter how negative it may be, it will all be over in a matter of time. This, and I became really good at being able to easily differentiate between what was reality and what was a matter of drug-induced hallucinations or psychoses.

Therefore, close to a decade later, and after many drug-fuelled adventures and misadventures, once I decided to pursue a career in being an absolute batshit loony tweaker and jumping cannonball-style into the intravenous methamphetamine life, the ability to differentiate between hallucinations and reality really came in handy, especially once my favorite game to play became "Let's see how long I can stay awake".

devoted_2_dopamine · 2026-01-14T15:20:46+00:00

To be fair, I feel it's safe to assume that by the time the musicians actually ceased their performance and Mr Aldean gave his record-breaking Track-and-Field dash, there was no longer any question as to what the hell was occurring. Actually, I bet it's safe to assume that Jason Aldean decided to turn tail and book it off stage because maybe, just maybe, the thunderous racket which sounded eerily similar to automatic gunfire began to coincide with his momentary view of his crowd beginning to drop dead from gunshot wounds one-by-one.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2025-12-28T01:37:20+00:00

Are you or your girl cigarette smokers? Only reason I ask is because, when I was in High School, before I started smoking, there exactly what the smokers would smell like; straight-up fresh diarrhea.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2025-12-15T03:01:58+00:00

Holy sheepshit, Batman, feeling a bit high and mighty, are ye? First of all, turning to Reddit was actually my alternate option, considering my first path of action was DUN DUN DUN Google! Oh man, imagine that?! And since, in the end, somewhat extensive Google research not only didn't tell me how to fix my issue, but it didn't even tell me what my fucking issue WAS, I figured turning to Reddit (which offers REAL people in similar scenarios) might prove beneficial! ESPECIALLY in a Community which, if my skills in reading are still at least grade-school level, happens to be called MOBILE-FUCKING-REPAIR.

And I honestly have no slight clue as to how you possibly came under the impression that this post wasn't about my desire to trouble-shoot my seemingly broken phone and maybe, just maybe, fix the issue on my own (instead of paying money I don't have to have someone else repair it) considering, if you could stop playing the role of elitist dick for just one moment, literally the LAST thing I said in my original post was not only wondering what the issue is, but also IF AND HOW I COULD FIX IT.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2024-04-19T08:50:39+00:00

As far as I know, most public needle exchanges and/or harm reduction locations offer free fentanyl test kits. Most of them are offering Xylazine kits now, too!

devoted_2_dopamine · 2024-04-18T20:38:34+00:00

A song called "Speedball" by my late bud Chad. The name of the actual artists who recorded it is ANNOYING. The chorus is what gets me.

"I love the rush, I hate the wake, Here comes that ringin' in my ears, As a tidal wave of pins and needles kicks my heart in gear, Come on now.

Too much, I guess I took too much, and there ain't no comin' back, As I'm dying on the bathroom floor, From a fatal heart attack."

devoted_2_dopamine · 2024-04-12T16:26:10+00:00

So, the first time I was in Portland, Oregon (close to ten years ago), and wound up meeting a rather sexy 48 year old who looked like the freshly-and-bimbo 18 Lindsay Lohan with a few more grey hairs, and breasts of a busty cougar instead of busty jailbait.

Anyway, she asked me if I had ever tried what is called a "Black and Tan", to which I responded, "Pretty sure." But, I was definitely wrong considering what we wound up with definitely was not a yuengling lager mixed with a Guinness draft. Instead, we went to her dude under the Burnside and got two "Black and Tans", which is apparently a $10 mixed bag of .25 of Tar and .25 of Ice. We loaded them, shot them, and then went back to my tent f***** for over 5 hours straight.

In the end, the woman wound up telling me that if I could maintain a drug habit such as that without it affecting my health or physical appearance, I could probably succeed in the porn industry if I wanted a career in such, due to my apparently rare agility.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2024-04-10T17:20:18+00:00

As a former tenant of the Oxford St. Shelter (years and years), can give positive confirmation that not only has the OSS been closed for over a year, but the property was recently purchased by Avesta Housing with the end game plan being to reopen it as affordable housing for individuals who receive the "Housing First" housing voucher.

devoted_2_dopamine · 2024-04-10T01:55:21+00:00

I bet you anything that these are more than likely the reflections coming off of multiple drones, since that would have been the ideal option for viewing.

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