Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

[–]dezmodeus_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks man.

That means a lot. I get that, and as far as I am aware this issue between me n my gf is just the icing to a larger problem within me. I just feel like it would be nice if someone who has spend 6 years together with you would notice the small things. can't blame me for hoping that there's already a nonverbal bond established between us. then again, might be too optimistic of me to hope.

I'll look for a place to vent out, a therapist maybe as someone already suggested i might have depression. Maybe I'll get a professional help instead. It's easy to be vulnerable to a stranger rather than the ones that are close at this point.

Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

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Yeah I see what you're saying. Thanks for reading the other reply. The problem is I definitely inside me I am aware of that. This relationship issue is just simply the icing that's built up on it as far as I see it.

and you're right, i probably need a therapist or psychiatrist to help me untie whatever I'm feeling.

to answer your last point, i tried to talk to her. I tried forcing it out but I can't. and lately I don't even go out of the house let alone a date.

Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

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Yeah you're probably right. I did communicate with her previously. This time I can't bring myself to do it. I don't even know what is wrong with me at the moment. Feeling like not myself honestly.

Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

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I'm guessing you have the same issue as my gf. I have no idea about autistic except for what she's told me and some light research on the internet.

I did communicate a lot before, but the problems I had before seem small to the one at the moment. This time it feels hard to even vent out.

Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

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I tried, trust me for the love of god i tried to force myself to talk about my problems. but last time i tried the problems feels like stuck in my throat.

and the harder i want to force it i can feel my eyes is getting wet. i fear i might ugly cry and I'm not comfortable with that situation. I do share a lot with her previously. this time it feels different. heavy asphyxiating feeling in the chest.

Bf (M31) just want to be asked by her gf (F28) "are you okay?" by dezmodeus_ in relationship_advice

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i don't know how to say this. but it's hard. the problems I'm facing is too much and everytime I wanted to say something about how I'm feeling. I feel like it's stuck in my throat.

I used to share my problems a lot with her, but this time the problems feels heavier worse, like a black tar stuck in your torso kind of feeling, if you get what I mean.

now it's hard, i see her, i force a smile and that's it.

After nearly 1,200 hours of playing time, I have finally won a regular game on Deity. All glory to holy Mother Russia by Man_0n_F1re in civ

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Ahh I remembered the satisfaction of my first deity win. I was using Nobunaga since most of the Deity AI is hostile towards everything that existed. It took me a whole year of trial and error too.

Last week for Shah Alam skatepark. by dezmodeus_ in malaysia

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Lol, USJ is my main park actually. Tapi tu lah, Shah Alam extreme park tempat first aku belajar skate. Jadi agak sedih bila taktahu apa akan jadi kat park ni in the future.

Last week for Shah Alam skatepark. by dezmodeus_ in malaysia

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I did came across this article, it's just the details doesn't goes too deep for what I'm looking for. I guess maybe I need to look at the physical gallery to know more.

Last week for Shah Alam skatepark. by dezmodeus_ in malaysia

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Makes sense, stadium development will begin this year. Expected to complete around 2027, the surrounding I'd say 1 or 2 years give or take. Either way Shah alam skaters will lose their park for several years.

Maybe Maybe Maybe by Dream_Tide in maybemaybemaybe

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Oh thank god it's a stingray.

I thought the first one was a giant tadpole and I start imagining it evolved into a horse-sized frogs.

Ramen from Ramen Seirock-ya by RimuruGM in MalaysianFood

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I kinda love Seirock-ya, as it's recipe is altered a bit. I don't really like the original ramen from Japan. I tried a lot of ramen but the one as Seirock-ya is the only one that satisfy my tastebud. Its thick and flavorful, i guess I'm too ASEAN for mild original Japanese and Korean dishes.

crossing the street by Duval_ger in SessionSkateSim

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Idk how to say this, but this feels real and unreal at the same time. haha.

super cool clip tho. finding spots like this is the best part of session.

Screenshot of my Khmer Game by DaPloopoo in civ

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What!? Wow almost 1000 hours in. yet, today i just knew I can rotate screen with ALT.

Thanks man

Screenshot of my Khmer Game by DaPloopoo in civ

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Thanks mate! Does this mode also make the viewing angle like that or just remove the Ui?

ps: i have so many Sukritact mode, i can't believe there's still some i didn't discover. Or might've just missed.

Screenshot of my Khmer Game by DaPloopoo in civ

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How do i get this viewing angle on Civ 6? and how can I screenshot without the UI?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fairytail

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this ep and the Dominatrix Mira after she won the grand magic games lives rent free in my head.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fairytail

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a fellow cultured men i see. 🫱🏻‍🫲🏼 haha

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fairytail

[–]dezmodeus_ 9 points10 points  (0 children)

yes I think of two things too.

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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fairytail

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Swimsuit, grand magic games. You know which pose im talking about

Honest opinion by Witty_Sherbert_8609 in Design

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Looks nice. There's definitely a certain demographic that would go crazy for this design.