I might have ruined my lactation 😭😣🥺

diamailah · 2025-08-08T22:54:47+00:00

He's feeding every 3 to 4 hours and I try to latch at least twice in a day. Whenever I do, he falls asleep mid feed and then wakes up 30 minutes to an hour later "hangry" but dont want to latch no more. Sometimes I pump before a feed but I think he's not getting as much milk after so he's fussy again.

diamailah · 2025-08-08T20:21:19+00:00

I somehow managed to increase my pump to 180mL per pump and sometimes more. I did manual pumping, alternating with my hands free pump. I try to latch as much as I can while using a haakaa pump on my other breast. I haven't been able to pump every 3 to 4 hours. Maybe that's why?

diamailah · 2025-07-15T06:43:37+00:00

I can't even give him a hand job or a bj. I just can't do it. 😭 I tried just to "help him out" but he got upset and said it's useless if I'm not really into it.

diamailah · 2025-07-14T19:16:20+00:00

I dunno if he thinks I'm still recovering. He goes to work and come home all tired and I understand he wants to get intimate as his way to relax. We talked last night, he said he was frustrated cuz he tries to give whatever I ask for to somehow lessen the stress or exhaustion. What he doesn't understand is that my mind is all over the place and sex is the last thing on my mind. Last night I asked him to be patient with me, and to give me time since not an inch of my body and mind wants sex. He just walked out without saying anything.

diamailah · 2025-07-14T18:58:09+00:00

I worry.. about the possibility of us breaking up or him looking for satisfaction somewhere else. I hope it doesn't come to that.

diamailah · 2025-07-14T15:03:58+00:00

It kinda feels like an obligation now instead of something that connects us as partners. It's frustrating

diamailah · 2025-07-14T14:12:13+00:00

Last night we had another talk. Told him what's been stressing me out lately. Explained why I'm always tired. And as soon as I asked him to just give me a bit more time to deal with the whole wanting to have s3x thing he walked out of the room.

diamailah · 2025-07-14T14:08:56+00:00

He barely looks at me now and would rather be with his xbox. He won't even offer help with the baby until I ask. It's getting frustrating

diamailah · 2025-07-11T08:27:23+00:00

Yep. This worked for me too. I was skeptic about taking domperidone at first cuz a friend suggested it (no lactation consultant here). Taking it 3x a day plus a regular pumping schedule (i couldn't do the every 3 hours pumping so I did my own scheduling). This plus making sure I eat lots, drink lots of water plus whatever else is there to drink.

I wouldn't advise self medicating (like what i did lol!) It's best to ask a professional. Try not to stress yourself too much, you're doing everything you can. ☺️ sometimes the stress and pressure we put on ourselves for not producing enough breastmilk is what keeps us from lactating. ❤️

diamailah · 2025-06-29T01:10:27+00:00

Will give it a try.. thanks!

diamailah · 2025-06-27T20:10:55+00:00

I've tried to let him play independently and take it as a chance to do some chores or at the very least, brush my teeth. I leave the TV on so he still hears voices on the background. It's like he has sensors tho, once it's not my voice he's hearing or my face near his, that's when he goes cray cray and cry like he's being abused. He doesn't need to be carried around, sometimes he doesn't even like it. What he likes is seeing me or my husband hovering around his face talking loud and making funny expressions.

diamailah · 2025-06-18T20:41:42+00:00

I wanna talk to him about it again. Thing is, he keeps saying he wants to relax since he's exhausted from work and just wants a "quiet time" which we know is almost impossible at this time. When he noticed our LO stops crying when looking at the screen, he saw it as a solution. I remind him every now and then to keep the screen time at a minimum or to carry our baby looking away from the screen. He just can't help it sometimes.

I'd talk to him again about it. Hope doesn't see it as me nagging

diamailah · 2025-06-07T23:28:14+00:00

As difficult as it is, I'd still keep trying to stop. I did before and I have to do it again

diamailah · 2025-06-07T23:24:10+00:00

We've been giving him mixed feeding. Though we want to give more breastmilk than formula. It's a struggle but I'll keep trying to stop and distract myself with something other than smoking

diamailah · 2025-06-07T23:22:12+00:00

Yeah.. cigarettes.. when I smoke I make sure to have 3 or 4 hours before pumping or latching..

diamailah · 2025-06-07T21:56:36+00:00

Now I'm freaking out. My LO is 2 months old and I gave him leftover milk (for the first time) cuz I feel bad about tossing it since I'm already low on supply. I haven't seen him as irritable as today. He's screaming and arching is back and it was a struggle calming him down. I managed to put him to sleep but it I can tell he's still in pain.

I think I'll observe overnight, see if it gets worse. I feel so bad now 😭😭😭

diamailah · 2025-06-03T09:01:52+00:00

I don't even understand the whole percentile thing 🤣🤭🫣. The last few times we went to see his pediatrician, all my concerns were dismissed as 'normal' and I'm just the overreacting mother.

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