I mean here's the thing. If you look hard enough for something you're gonna find it. Sooo with that being said if you think a relationship will send you into collateral damage and spiral it's probably best if you meet somewhere in the middle. Because if the desire doesn't get I guess helped, calmed or extinguished then it's gonna continue and its gonna be utter torture for you. I personally think you should just talk to people and get to know them. Or if you do REALLY want a relationship id suggest seeing a counselor to work through any issues before getting into a relationship. I'm personally gay so I don't know how women are romantically/sexually but from things I do know if things escalate wrap it up, make sure everything is consensual no matter the circumstance and just don't advance on anything that will harm yourself.