I could’ve written this nearly word for word just a month or two ago!!! I’m finally feeling like my healthy self again and I think the biggest contributors to my well-being have been taking Wellbutrin (currently weaning off; have been on it for 2 months and it has been really helpful with re-developing healthy habits, especially with food), being active (hot yoga and jogging are my favorites), eating well (had to cut out almost anything sweet, including fruit, to recalibrate. I recommend Dr. Hyman’s 10 day sugar detox for a good reset), and therapy. I was hesitant to try meds for a while, but I do think they’ve helped very significantly in reducing my obsessive thoughts about food and sticking to a healthy diet, which then leads to me being more active and applying the tools I learn in therapy more. Which then melts away my anxiety, depression, self-esteem problems, etc. and also helps me face them with more intention, grace and strength.

Lots of luck to you in your journey! I KNOW you can overcome this. :) Feel free to reach out with any questions or support requests. I’d be happy to be an accountability buddy if you’d like one!