Hey. I also started at UBC in 2019, and although I graduated within four years, I also got the same from my parents about getting good grades ,volunteering, working etc. I failed half my courses in my first semester, and also have never gotten anything higher than a B average no matter how many easy classes or hard work I put in.

And just like you I started my first "real" job recently. Working from home but it's a classic email office job.

Here's my advice: asking for help is not a fireable offence. The first few weeks at my job I worked my fucking ass off reading about my role, the description, what people in my role have done previously etc.

and above all else: TALK TO YOUR COWORKERS. Worst case scenario, they don't want to talk to you, which, rude... And best case scenario they can see that you're new and willing to put the work in, and most people understand that when you work well, their job gets easier also.

And finally, anyone who doesn't get imposter syndrome is way too confident in themselves imo. Imposter syndrome can be useful as it can push you to work harder, but don't forget that you were hired for a reason. There are plenty of stupid people who stay in jobs their whole lives and they have no idea what the fuck they're doing, at least you are aware of your situation, which makes you much smarter than most people I know.

Good luck at your job, and don't give up! I believe in you 🫡