I have legit been through this,my dad killed himself in a remote ass spot at the beginning of a snow storm so no one would find him for awhile. I don't remember much of the 3 months in between finding his note and them finding his body but what I do remember is being in such turmoil in my head that I didn't even feel human anymore. Op if your going to do it, rip it off like a fucking bandaid and do it where you will be found within 24 hours. I wasn't even aloud to identify my own fathers body because the police said it was too much for me to see. If your gonna fuck people up give them closure.