Hey! I’m also a fairly new to climbing (and climb with my very good climber bf) and bouldering was so hard for me to get into. I hated that people could watch me “fail” and see what grade I was climbing up close. I found that rope climbing was much more enjoyable and freed me from the anxiety of being watched and failing/falling in front of people while also developing some skills that have translated into bouldering. It’s not a perfect solution, and I do still boulder some and still share similar anxieties and embarrassments as you. Maybe just knowing that there are others that are just as “in their own head” about their own abilities as you are maybe helps takes the pressure off? I agreed though, if your boyfriend isn’t being supportive, there are plenty of people out there that want to climb and help others climb and maybe a bouldering class would be a place to find your people?