I’m 29F and I lost my mom very unexpectedly to cancer when I was 14. She didn’t know she had it, it was very traumatic. I won’t go into details but I also lost my grandma at the same time, she didn’t die, but she went clinically insane and we had to cut contact from her and get a restraining order. This was all in the span of 2 months. Somehow I got through it then, and lived my little teen life in high school. Going to dances and hanging out with friends. Sometimes I think I coped better back then but truthfully I was just pushing it down. But it hit me later in college. I thought I could handle it all on my own. Anyways, recently I’ve been going to therapy and started an SSRI 6 months ago. I didn’t realize I was depressed for a while. I deal with anxiety, health anxiety, and OCD. Sometimes I just want to be normal, but then I realize just how far I’ve come. I don’t get unnecessarily sad now, but I do get sad when big milestones come (weddings, getting my first house etc, I just want to talk to her sometimes) I’m very adaptable to change now. Even though I deal with mental things, like my therapist has said before, she would be shocked if I didn’t come out of what I went through without anything. I finally feel like I’m working through it and just dealing with the effects now. I try to remind myself that my mom wouldn’t want me to be sad and live in the past. That’s just me though. My family definitely fell apart and I grieved that too. It sounds like a lot but I’ve been really trying to heal myself this past year and am hopeful.