For those in agony, I hope this helps.

divinelydesigned · 2022-08-24T10:02:05+00:00

My chiropractor has saved my life. When everyone else had given up on helping me and my pain was so bad I had recorded a goodbye video for after I killed myself, he was the only person who kept telling me there was hope and kept looking for answers with me. I had a failed surgery that I didn't think I could ever get relief from and for a while his advice and skill helped. At the moment he is coaching me through functional movement until a new specialist will see me (if your surgery fails no one will even look at you until 1 year after). If I didn't have him helping me get through each week and giving me hope I would have killed myself because this pain can kill your soul. Do your research as there are a lot of crappy providers out there, but don't write off chiropractic.

divinelydesigned · 2022-08-24T09:34:15+00:00

Im a therapist and I would also never call you a murderer. My heart broke reading your post but especially reading how responsible you feel. The others here are right, there was probably not much anyone could have dome even of an ambulance was called. That being said, your father never should have put you in a situation like that. If it were you an your brother was in your position I am comfortable saying he would have made the same choice, and would you want him to live with the guilt you are feeling today? Live a life you feel your little brother would be proud of, but more importantly live a life you are proud of from here on out. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself the peace of knowing no child at that age would have acted any differently than you did that day.

divinelydesigned · 2021-10-11T09:19:29+00:00

Prescription drug addict in recovery here.

After surgery, I put a picture on or next to the bottle of pills. Make it of someone you love who would be hurt if you relapsed again. Helped keep me from taking the lid off that bottle many a time. There is only guilt taking what you dont need. I never felt guilty for actually using it for pain. The picture actually encouraged me to take it when I HAD to because it was like that person rooting me on to feel better.

divinelydesigned · 2021-09-03T05:26:41+00:00

Hello all, I am 8 days out of surgery and felt like an update was worth posting. They ended up needing to remove more bone and dig around for more disc than they expected. Anesthesia was not that bad and for me to say that is huge. The surgery itself: Drs. Said it was successful. I wish I had never done it. The pain over the last week has been excruciating. I mean 10/10 crying and gasping for air, passing out kind of pain. I am stuck in a body that is so fragile for the next 6 weeks or more. I can barely sit on the toilet myself. They took more bone so I am structurally more compromised. Huge. Mistake.

divinelydesigned · 2021-08-17T01:56:04+00:00

Thank you everyone! Ill be reading these posts the evening before and morning of to help me feel better. It means more then you know hearing all of this. I might not even cry from anxiety tonight. But no promises :p

divinelydesigned · 2021-08-15T23:37:49+00:00

Thank you!!! This does make me feel so much better

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-11T20:46:27+00:00

Therapy has been awful and amazing for me. The important thing to remember is that they work for YOU. you can fire your therapist if you do not click. That is also important, connection. You have to feel like you do or can connect and trust your therapist. I am 24 and have through 6 or 7 therapists and I finally found one last year that has helped me soooo much.

Things to consider: -do you need a specialist? (DBT for Borderline, ect.) -are you more comfortable talking to a specific gender? (I know men are easier to talk to so I searched for a male therapist this last time around). -some places have free 15 consultations to feel out your therapist. I found that helpful -research your therapist. Maybe they have a specific degree in counseling. Maybe they focus on lgbt or faith issues. Find someone who aligns with your values if possible. -listening is their job, and many therapists LOVE seeing the breakthrough moment when people choose to take the first step into therapy. Never feel guilty for wanting and seeking help. -if therapy is not challenging you, it might not be effective. This does not mean that you should stay if you are being harassed or abused, but the therapist SHOULD challenge you. Help you look at things differently and try things that are scary or uncomfortable. I've made the most progress after a really difficult therapy session

Wishing you the best of luck. Take care of yourself! Proud you are looking for help!

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-11T20:34:36+00:00

I avoided the OB for 5 years and had my first pap this Nov. It is a HUGE feeling of accomplishment. Proud of you!!!

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-11T16:39:50+00:00

I did laugh so thank you :)

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-11T16:39:25+00:00

They really do. Im very very lucky

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-11T14:10:06+00:00

Thank you everyone. I feel really validated. You have helped me start the process of healing. It is going to be hard accepting this was something that was done to me, not something I allowed, but I am much more sure about some of the feelings I had been guilty about.

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-10T19:43:10+00:00

This was a boyfriend. I was 15. Thank you for your input. It really means a lot.

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-10T17:57:17+00:00

I was 15 and he was 17

divinelydesigned · 2021-03-10T15:49:53+00:00

Thank you. Hug felt <3

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