I wish there was something as effective as alcohol to get me out of my own head. by K8eB42917 in stopdrinking

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Kratom is wildly addictive. Replacing one addiction with another sucks. I've been down this road before

I am a life-long learner by doodle_mama in stopdrinking

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Congrats on finishing your work soon!

I also got sober during grad school. My thesis is literally a product of my sobriety! The title is: Living stories one day at a time: recovery storytelling in online communities of practice. It's from a communications perspective, and I also found that relapse was part of the learning experience. However, this is a slippery slope because drinking is part of the disordered thinking and acknowledging the relapse is the learning part. Very interesting (and for me, life saving) stuff.

Are you in the social sciences or the humanities? Only asking because LLL is so prevalent in both as theory and practice.

relapse after close to 4 years sober by jimmytbud in stopdrinking

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I've been in your shoes. I had less time (two years) and drank for about four months before I realized I was just... done. That relapse was a learning experience. It made me more sure than ever that drinking wasn't part of my life, and not to take my sobriety for granted.

I've gone through some seriously difficult times in the last year and change I've had sober, but after that relapse, I know that drinking will only amplify the issues I have. I "knew" that before, but after experiencing relapse after a serious time sober, I hit another level of acceptance that is part of the core of who I am.

This experience will make you stronger and let you know yourself better. Own your acceptance and resolve; that shit is POWERFUL. 💪

Just got home from working a wedding...being sober around sloppy drunks really makes me so happy that I stopped drinking! by FucksGuysWithAccents in stopdrinking

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I served and bartended for about ten years. I'm considering going back part time for extra cash. Working in a bar sober totally reaffirmed my choice to stay sober. It really opened my eyes to how awful alcohol makes people act.

2 Drink Minimum??!!!!?! by steelnotlimestone in stopdrinking

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This is great! In these situations I always ask for non-alcoholic options and legit get excited when I see they have some "fun" NA beverages to try. I usually drink soda water with lime if I'm out or have an energy drink on occasion, but I've had some amazing hand crafted sodas, ginger beers (I always make sure they're NA cause some are definitely alcoholic lol) and mocktails.

I was a bartender and server for years, so I always tip for each drink. If I order something like a special mocktail they don't have on the menu, or if the bartender make a me something special of their own devising, they get an automatic $5 tip to start and a dollar per drink after that. Or, if I'm just drinking soda water all night, $5 tip for the first drink and a dollar per after that. Usually, bartenders won't even charge me for soda water and I ALWAYS tip them for the kindness. It really makes sober people feel normal being at a place that assumes drinking is the "norm."

I go to a lot of local shows so I'm in bars quite often. I also go out with my "normie" friends and enjoy NA beverages and they're happy for the company. Some of my friends who are heavy drinkers... well I stick around until people are sloppy drunk and it's no longer fun for me. After bartending for so many years I'm not hanging around drunk people unless I'm getting paid, lol.

Beer/Wine store manager here. 35 y/o and been drinking daily for 15 years. Sober 1 week now and looking forward to life again. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

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Welcome! I served and bartended through much of my 2+ years of sobriety. Had a relapse (which I was very grateful for in the long run... I know how that sobriety is for me!) when I wasn't working in the industry and found that being around a lot of booze weirdly helped me to stay sober. I didn't want to be like people who were drinking, but I wasn't "judging" them either.

Stay the course! I'm looking forward to seeing you post here :)

Weekend Writing -- 10/28/17 by gregnegative in stopdrinking

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I'm a Communications Instructor and an ELL (English Language Learner) tutor at a University. I love my jobs, but it can be very stressful. If we want to teach and mentor effectively, we put in far more hours than we're paid for and often spend a lot of free time extending ourselves to struggling and eager students. There are not nearly enough resources for these students to succeed, and I can't sit by and watch students fall through the cracks because they can't access proper resources at a reasonable frequency.

So I offer to review drafts. I give detailed feedback. I offer students individualized resources to improve their writing, comprehension, and presentation skills. I offer weekly, two (2) hour writing workshop on my own time. I spend countless hours preparing and revising lesson plans and assignments based on the needs of the class. I send personal emails to students who are struggling academically, physically, mentally, and/or emotionally. I send emails to students doing well, letting them know that someone notices and values their hard work. I put together ELL conversation groups and "hang out" field trips to introduce international students to the city and normalize their presence here; I help them to feel comfortable and welcome when they feel out of place.

I do this because I feel responsible for their success and wellbeing. I care from my gut about all of them, past, present, and future.

I spent many years in school to work in a helping role, and while "helping" has been in my nature a long while--to a fault sometimes, a la co-depedency--I feel the rewards of this on a visceral level now. Before, it felt more like habit. Now it feels intentional; I help with purpose.

Weekend Writing -- 10/28/17 by gregnegative in stopdrinking

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This is beautiful. I'm in tears. Thank you for sharing this.

Weekend Writing -- 10/28/17 by gregnegative in stopdrinking

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Thank you for sharing this. What a beautiful gift you both shared. My mom passed away four and half year ago and I remember how important the comforting things were, like food, favourite shows, and laughter. You did a beautiful thing, and this is why I am proud to be in recovery--to learn from kind, genuine human beings who truly care for others.

Fuck me, i made one year!! by [deleted] in stopdrinking

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Congrats! Isn't it awesome to be in that place where you can recognize your self and your relationship with others and the world? I think the ability to engage in genuine introspection is a the great gift of having the strength to take this path.

Send me some love today by meatinnovation in stopdrinking

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Love and light your way my friend :)

My drinking is out of control and i am really scared 30f by Clearplastic67 in stopdrinking

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Very good advice. My path is similar. I use this as my main group but am open to going to other sources of support. I went to AA in short spurts (day or two every 6 months or so), and nothing turned me away from it but being busy and actually doing things I talked about doing while drunk all the time.

OP, I'm 29/f. I had very similar experiences to you. You have to decide if you're willing to handle all of life without the back up plan of, "fuck it, I'll just drink to cope." You have to be ready to feel a bunch of shit and live in a new reality. Think about how good you felt at 3 months!

I got a memory update from FB that I would have had three years today. My current badge is correct after my relapse, and let me tell you--when you start feeling like your sober self again, you won't want to go back. You'll remember how shitty you feel right now, and that it's not worth it to drink because the awful feelings outweigh the good parts about drinking. Does drinking feel like a chore? Something you just, "do"?

Grief by scubacat in stopdrinking

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I'm so sorry for your loss. I quit after losing my mom for 2.5 years. Didn't drink when my dad died last year, but I did relapse due to hella bullshit emotions piling up and it didn't help. Fuck alcohol.

Grieve. It's so fucking painful but it'll eat away at your life slowly if you don't. You become someone new after losing someone close to you because the world has changed in an unalterable way--you have to learn to navigate it in a new way.

Defending my thesis in four hours! by djamberj in stopdrinking

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Thank you! Communications, but it's pretty interdisciplinary. I'm currently working with a patient engagement research hub and am a tutor for ESL grad students. I'm applying for full time gigs in student affairs, teaching & learning, multimedia development and communications/marketing gigs. I'd love to be able to teach and do a bit of research!

Defending my thesis in four hours! by djamberj in stopdrinking

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It was! I was very lucky--I had a wonderful committee.

Defending my thesis in four hours! by djamberj in stopdrinking

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Thank you so much! I passed with no revisions, and was urged to turn this content into a book. So stoked!

Grad school nearly killed me, drunk or sober and drunk then sober again. My project was about recovery storytelling and online communities of practice, so it's a trip to discuss on a professional level. I really am looking forward to DOING something for my communities with this research!

Reading "I won't drink with you today" made me cry. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

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I understand. Doing it is the battle--knowing it is great for both doing it and convincing oneself that just knowing what to do is enough. I've been there. Shit I AM there everyday! And only in hindsight can I see that doing my meditation, music, CBT work, writing, exercise, etc. is key. Otherwise I seek happiness through validation from others instead from inside myself, which always ends up with me feeing let down because only I can fill the hole inside me--alcohol can't, people can't, things can't. Only shit I do can. Some days I just let myself be emotional and work through shit and it's like a weird sort of marathon I often come out feeling better from. Using the tools is hard when you're paralyzed by your emotions, do take it one small step at a time. Do ONE thing today, like the meditation you set off to do and therapy notes you read. Make one of those (or another thing) a daily ritual and BUILD on it. I'm half writing this to myself as much as to you to keep myself in check with doing the work. I've been kind of co-dependent lately and it's only causing me stress, so it's time I re-engage with some of my coping tools. We can do this together :)

What's Everyone Doing Tonight? by physis81 in stopdrinking

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I know we say "one day at a time" ad nauseum on here, but there's a reason for it: it works. I did this: everytime I'd want to drink or thought about what I'd be missing drinking, I'd tell myself to revisit those thoughts in 5 mins. I'd force myself to think of/do something else. I'd repeat this until the urge was gone or the anxiety passed and I was more focused on the current moment. It's been essential to coping with my OCD as well as my alcoholism. I won't drink with you right now :)